world beyond

all this hurt.. shouldn't have . ;last post.

2007-06-20T02:27:00.000+08:00

shouldnt have.

spent so much time just staying by you hoping to forget eun. shouldnt have done that? gaining trust is just that impossible? swore never to love but ending up being too close and hurting this badly again. i told myself, you're not mine and i cant force you. you can't be mine cause you have your own. notice me, will anybody?!

it just hurts this much but it doesnt really matter does it? trying so hard to be there and then later see that you werent even there. the speaking of nobody is there that could help. it just hurts this much. shouldn't have loved, shouldn't have gotten any feelings at all ! why. trying so hard and feeling so helpless when everything you do seems to have no effect.

after trying so hard and not just noticed at the most crucial point. why? efforts to waste, words to air, it just all doesnt matter. trying so hard to be noticed, to be there, to do everything, sacrifice, it just doesnt matter! for you to notice everyone else, not me. doesnt matter.

missed having you around for so long but in the end whats all those feelings for? hurt, discomfort, all those. it sucks. all of it. i want to be there, for the person i care most for, to be there when you're down, to be there when you need it, but it hurts and sucks to know that when you are down, im just somebody for you to talk with like a wall. has it ever mattered?

i was wrong, once more. i dont want to see you hurt, its depressing to see you down and it just feels bad not being able to do anything about it. i wish you can stop saying all those words which hurt so much, but i cant say it, i want you here, i dont want to lose another someone like you.. nomatter how much it can hurt at times, i want you to be here, but everything i have ever wished for, never came true. of everyone else that could be name by you, im not on that list. never the first, why work hard? why try? pushing the limits when you know you can never be the first.

i wanna love but it hurt too much. i wanna run but i couldnt move. what else could be done. live this world without feelings, live every moment without reason, it doesnt matter right?

i still dont know why, because i still want to be there for you, always being there, waiting, being that shadow just watching silently and somehow the shadow that can never dissapear. its what i want to? maybe. maybe i just cant live without love, nomatter how much it hurts?

nomatter how shattered this heart could be, i'll carry on, as human or as a lifeless thing, carry and live on.

To JinYe: Thank You.

-G-

last and final post on this blog. maybe i'll consider to many another blog, just a possibility.

i still want to be there for you!

Granado Espada Raid Party @ Zouk

2007-06-17T01:47:00.000+08:00

hmms today is the Granado Espada Raid Party @ Zouk!! hahahs cool eh?

anyways met up with jasmine like rather early though she was a little late. oh yea before that i like sleep at quite late then wake quite early again hahahs. played a little GE then go off to msn.

later go to city hall with jasmine and walked around while waiting for that mark to come cause he like so late -.- lol hahahs. bought something light to eat, jasmine got currypuff and i got chocolate muffin and we bought gulps from the 7-11 beside the Polar stall. later just walk back and wait for mark.

mark finally arrives!! hahahs we were rather lost so erm walked around the area. went up then later mark ask around and eunice said that its outside exit B(erm ok thanks eun for directions) then later we wait for the second shuttle bus since its rather full for the first one. while waiting mark bought this small pack of cookies for like $9?! some donation thing to help SPCA lol! its like waste but whatever. that idiot is rich? hahahs. got on bus and finally, we reach zouk!! ok ok after a little walk.

getting in, its like jasmine did not register and mark did not print. so i just acompany them to register again and like man long que!! waited quite some time just to get in. alvin was like so late lol. anyways found erm yan ling and jaslyn(from my faction in GE) while lining up and hmms we just go in later. did some stupid quest, walk around and like hmmms.. watch the events? hahas like theres free coke !! cool? lol anyways the lucky draw is like exciting, it always calls out o1(something something) but ours are like 0141 to 0143 and like it ended at 0155 and 0157 =X sad sad. was fun. later we watch the semi finals and finals of the PvP tournament and lol cool they spam the skill like freak and the commentator was like out of breath hahahs.

went out a 5+ after the minor events and was rather lost. later walked to great city something and had our dinner at macs. walk around and after some info from alvin, we finally found the shutter bus to city hall. waited quite some time and finally we got on. rushed back down and luckily the train was just nice there. ran in and stood for quite some time. later found seats with jasmine and sat till like yishun when we get down to go to northpoint to buy the GE installation disk. comic connection like out of stock so later go upstairs to some other comic shop to buy, luckily theres still stock there? sent jas to the mrt station then later went to the pasar malam beside to look around and check for some takoyaki(octupus ball) but later just go home cause like too tired and my eyes are hurting.

so back and wheee jinye's back!! atleast for now. she going off tomorrow again =X T.T sad. anyways still gonna miss you =X

-gareth-

the worst feeling ever is to miss somebody =X

ice skating again! hahas

2007-06-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

ok ok past few days like play GE every single daya nd like at night still bot the account to gain levels while i sleep hahas. since jinye went on her holiday i like have more time for my personal training heex =3 anyways today went for ice skating again!! hahah

met up with mark and chen chao at like 2.30pm(those 2 idiots were like late by 30 minutes!!) then later we went to the skating rink first and got in first instead of waiting for alvin. like chen chao's friends were there and hahas fun skating. mark did not skate again -.- still dare brag what crap lol! alvin came in later when he FINALLY arrive hahahs then erms he don't even know how to skate and like lol! enter and fall. spent some time teaching that idiot then also skate myself. rather crowded and like bumped into like 3 girls since those girls so like to form 1 whole line which erm.. a wall? troublesome =x hahahs.

ok ok later we went out when they re-ice the place and like nothing much to do so like went to Kbox again hahah!! immagine 4 guys going to kbox lol! ok ok we sang crap hahas. laughed alot there though some songs don't fit me. anyways its fun and like alvin, chen chao and mark teach me how to sing with my tummy and not my throat? hahahs. fun singing xD spent quite some time at the kbox then later chen chao got to go and mark, alvin and i wanted to go play pool but that mark too young -.- we all 16 but he is still 15 lol!(idiot)

hmms finally come back home and like rather tired. ice skating drains quite alot of energy =x

-gareth-

ahh i miss you !! =x hahah

JinYe

2007-06-05T18:48:00.000+08:00

hmms past few days rather tired. spent the entire night playing granado espada with jinye hahas. chat chat chat lol! well it was fun having her around =))

monday went to school late since i dont have Amaths and later reach hall late and the group of us who were late had to re-sing the national anthem and school song. diao.. later have SS intensive lol. skipped bio and f&n and went home right after that. then like take a nap while botting in GE haha. played GE with jinye again from evening to erm morning then she went to sleep(at first wanted to take a nap to show her mum that she is sleeping so she wont get crapped but later i ask her go rest since she played for so long hahas)

go school, slept through maths. lol mr chan wanted to ask me to answer a question then later change his mind saying that 'better not, he'll sure know the answer.. need ask someone who dont' lol hahas. ss revision again then later get into our groups and erm do some work. after that have a short break then go the discovery centre. slept abit on the bus trip there then later wait awhile then go in. daryl and i went to get some snacks lol! hahas. well quite ok. about the brain and some aeroplane show. slept through part of the second show, rather bored and tired. lol! lizhen and emily was like sleeping soundly -.-

hmm hmmmmm. nothing much =X well thanks JinYe!! acompanied me when i was feeling rather down =)) hahas.

-grth

well it still hurts to see you

unforgetable..

2007-06-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

not really going to say much lol.

got back my results for erm comb science and er.. geog i guess. failed geog pass comb sci? lol. its just hard to find a place you belong. went into eun like recess cause of peiqi then like later man.. that expression again.. went up then er.. seeing her with all those actions just hurts so much.. ending up like at the 4A window there dazing out into nothing while bearing the pain. thought i have forgotten everything and let aside all those emotions.. it just hurts.. so much

hmm.. came back then jinye finally installed granado espada then like played with her till rather late hahas. like we kept lagging =X but anyways was fun having her around playing lol

-unforgettable-
i still love you?

1st day back, oral

2007-05-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmms past few days have been playing Granado Espada lol hahas. anyways today need to go to school for some extra lessons hahas.

early in morning go to school hear that weixi's voice -.- lol hahas then later found pq and then like she say eunice is there also and like cute lol stick out her head then go back in hahas. later she come over talk to pq? hahas.

anyways later english got back papers, just nice passed for paper 1. woots 30/60 hahas. a small break time went to find daniela and she just nice went down and we like waiting there for her lol. later just talka bit then we go bio and lol! i wrote crap for it. anyways was sleeping for most of the bio thing.

after school we discuss go oral or not then in the end late by around 20 min and we were left in another room to wait for the 1st batch to finish and finally took oral. i flunk it xD hahas.

played GE when back lol. nothing much to do. Faction Leader XD

-gareth-

x-country

2007-05-23T19:46:00.000+08:00

today is cross-country!! hahas did not sleep on my bed again last night. lol was downloading Granado Espada last night hahas. anyways met peishan and daniela in the morning then like she ask me join them run lol. supposed to catch up with them but later found out that everyone stars together instead of girls first.

ok ok was running a bit with them at the start then like daniela was not feeling that well so erm.. slow down? lol. later acompany marianne and peishan run while daniela pushes herself to run infront hahas. halfway through peishan were like making nonsensical craps out lol! how Super Mario runs.. how Super Mario jumps.. Auntie-Style brisk walk.. lol!! hahas. then marianne was like tired so like 'push' her along lol! near end i run infront to catch up with daniela who was like wooo wobbly.

after that went around with them hahas. talk craps and just lol! go hall man they scream so loud!! hahas cheer for own house but rather loud =X Vinson house won again for this year. well went back to class to sign out then later went to find marianne and went off(she don't like to go home alone then the rest of them busy)

decided to walk since we both don't really like crowded buses? lol then kenneth caught up halfway and discussed some things. lol marrianne was rather speechless. after that we walked one whole big round to a bus stop(wanted to walk to northpoint then tired then later wanted to take 812 then rather far then like lol) then in the end rather close to north point but still took bus cause marianne was too tired. acompany her at the bus stop then she goes off. later i went off to get my lunch and go home hahas.

well.. to Marianne: treasure what you have, life is not that perfect =)

-gareth

congratulations to all who won the prizes at the cross country. cheers for all!! ;DD

maths & science day

2007-05-22T17:04:00.000+08:00

maths & science day today!! hahah! was rather tired in the morning and my eyes hurt. lol

anyways later after the crap performance at hall, went down to help mdm au at the booth. rather borring cause i solved every puzzle hahas(even the extra hard one mdm au gave) then later i took a coupon and 'go visit the booths' but actually i went to the rocket launch thing.

stayed with them(daniela, marianne and peishan) and later helped them launch the rocket, though it did not fly that far but was fun hahas we got wet, peishan was the wettest cause she launched the rocket. when she first launched it she got a little wet the come hug me to get me wet -.- lol later we all got wet cause don't know who asked me to pump the rocket and pop i got wet too hahas. fun!

go back to booth, tease a bit more people and then just help out around, go up and take some gifts lol! shoe bag for no reason? hahas. quite ok today lol.

ok ok after that went off with alvin, galston and umairah. alvin took bus home then umairah and i went to galston's house hahas. bought some snacks on the way. that 'whatever?' drink and some chips and we proceed to his house. at first play some card game called bluff then later help him play his playstation game which is almost the same and i was like scoring like freak lol!! hahas galston says he can barely get to 120 while i was like 400 at most lol! quite ok, played that soo long hahas.

-cheers~

well good that somebody is getting a listening buddy, wonder who that is lol.
anyways to that listening buddy, do take care of her! hahas

final papers!! positivity!

2007-05-21T13:14:00.001+08:00

today marks the end of the exams!! hahas. had so much time to sleep during exam, thats rather me when i'm serious in my work wahahaha.

hahas stick with daryl and peiqi till end of school lol.

oh yeah f&n i'm so dead.. whats a vitoria sandwitch cake??! lol! hahas. anyways had alot of time to think so i made up my mind. think positive and live life as it is! hahas. negative thoughts pull people down and thats why they should be gotten rid of!

i want to make my life a good one! hahas.

-think, choose, go!~

i'm never alone because you are always here in my heart

2007-05-20T12:38:00.000+08:00

so what is every says that you can do all these? being able to do better than the rest?
so what? so what if you can know the world? so what if you can know everything?
does the world know you?! does the world understand?! does the world care?! does it?!
even if the whole world leaves me, even if the wrold hates me, why must you?
why must you? bring put infront of everything else but yet.. why?!

what hurts the most? being so close? once having you around so close and now losing everything and wondering why must this all happen. seeing everyone else having their friends, everyone else enjoying and looking at myself alone just tears me apart. why must everything suck this bad. everyone has friends who care and are always there for them, wheres mine? why isnt ANYONE EVER THERE?! WHY?!

turning my back on everything else, just not you. why cant i just turn? why cant i move?! WHY?!
if everyone cared. this world wont suck this much. if you ever cared, this wont hurt this much. but why? im seen differently in the eyes of all. i'll never be first, never and ever. so why bother? so why try so hard? why push your limits when you know THAT ITS ALL USELESS?! WHY DOES EVERYONE SAY ALL THOSE BUT MEAN NOTHING? WHY IS IT ALL JUST LIES?! WHY?!

my own birthday was ruined enough, the day after i found out a lie and it sucked even more. then now im just freaked. does anyone realise? does anyone see me? does anyone NOTICE that i'm falling? does? doing everything, risking everything, does anyone realise?! it just hurts this much, no words can ever describe. to have you run around, to have you break down, loving you is all i was trying to do, but does that matter?

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

all this just stucks while living in this regret. why cant everything just stop..

-lost-

does? no.

birthday surprise!!

2007-05-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

hahas woke up rather early and like watched seasame street lol!! elmo's world!!~~ hahas. got a haircut early in the morning(now rather short) lol was like freakish cool with the layered sides(ear till back portion) was like cool!! but had them cut off again cause like still long hahas. did not really cut that much for fringe lol.

anyways went to school and just nice met peiqi. hahas she passed me the big big big big(ok not that big, just barely bigger than my head) teddy bear hahas. cute? lol. went to canteen then went up to hall later when eunice dismiss. she was rather hesitant and went down by the other staircase(rather far lol) then later pq went down to chat with her and she says she'll pass me the present later.

umairah passed it to me though(both hers and Eunice's) hahas. did not really notice the present was different. later walk to study room with peiqi then i go canteen find daniela and regina. they ask me wait in school then like go off so called meet regina's boyfirend hahas. i actually noticed everything was a party already lol. anyways found peishan and marianne and wanted to find daniela but later walk back to school. marianne was rather pissed off lol. regina came back first then later daniela came with a cake! lol!! surprise? hahas daniela tried to off the fan but was blured out by the number of switches but later peishan slowly test and peter(freak guy, only know his name somehow) helped her lol. then later peter keep come and bug us and like heck! blew the candles and like what the!! the candles had sparkles in them and when i blew it, it ignites back because of the spark -.- diao... lol took like 6 tries

wanted to eat the cake but peter keep bug us. later peishan cut a slice and gave peter to thank him and ask him to stop bugging us, he still continued though. kenneth and jeremy came later to wish happy birthday and ask us go over instead. peter somehow followed us and bug us(darn!) lol. was like ate the cake without using my hands and messed up my face hahas. later when i washed it then i notice how 'colourful' it was. peter was bugging us too much and we wanted to call mdm naier to get rid of him. later kenneth call me off to discuss about that peter then damien came with some hair wash thing lol! pushed it to the room beside girls toilet. anyway later we ran away from that peter. kenneth help us to distract him or something and like find a path out(thanks kenneth!) and at first the girls were shocked cause peter like follow us and they ran? lol

later kenneth come and tell us to use the back gate and we like sneak around and slip out of the back gate. later we all shout 'thanks kenneth!' lol hahas. thanks to him we got lose of peter! hahas. he is a freak! phyco story behind him, rather scary though.. eeek! his story is gross and creepy =X anyways later daniela ask me walk regina back cause like everyone was freaked out and shes like youngest? lol hahas. went home after that and opened the presents. so much chocolates.

eunice's present was like sweet hahas. the box was decorated by her brother and like inside had some stars and a meaningful letter(thanks =) and umairah gave a box of chocolates with a little note hahas. never tasted merci chocolate though.. thanks anyway! peiqi's bear was bigger than i expacted hahas. later finished half the cake and like was weird since regina say 'lift the cake' and was wondering hahas. saw that theres a gap between the cake and the box and tilted it. found this extra thing down there. can't really say lol! will get loads of comments. hahas. anyways its nice and oh yeah i cleared my cupboard and cleaned it. arranged it and put all my personal things neatly into there, now it included another birthday things and a special box(made from that john decorated) and its now neat hahas. locked it later(found the lock when i was clearing it) and now its nice hahas.

well today is the best day of my life until now lol!! =)) thank you Eunice, Daniela, Marianne, Peishan, Peiqi and Umairah! hahas. today is nice. oh ya and those who wished me happy birthday lol. log on msn and loads of popups saying conversation opened.

oh yeah Happy Birthday PeiJie!!(peiqi said that her birthday is tomorrow)

-birthday boy Gareth=))

thanks eunice, that gift was like so sweet and meaninful hahas.

daniela and regina, of all things to put under the cake -.- lol thanks anyway.

god bless all who birthday falls =)

happy birthday to me!!

2007-05-18T00:01:00.001+08:00

happy birthday to Me
happy birthday to Me
happy birthday to MeEEE
happy birthday to ME =)) lolx hahas

wheeeee aniversary to my blogging career!! hahas =))

wish everyone else whose brithday falls on 18th may a very warm happy birthday!!

Create your own Friend Test here

exams so late!! lol

2007-05-17T18:04:00.000+08:00

today the maths paper until like 4:40pm lol. anyways halfway through it started to rain then like strong winds blew the rain in and like what the heck. got half wet then i cover my papers with a spare piece of paper hahas. poor people from 4A got drenched by the rain. theres one tiny little girl who sits all the way infront like still trying so hard to finish the paper hahas. in the end i did not finish all the questions haha. was erm blanking out too much =X

after that went off then umairah tried to pass me my present and i say 'pass it to me when i'm 16' lol hahas. i'll be going back to school tomorrow i guess.. anyways later eunice went of with syahmi, mark and umairah(i think) and i just walk back rather fast(escaping again) lol haha..

chat with zhuxin whom i have not chat with for qutie some time hahas.

man.. just by blogging its hurting so much.. don't know why..

-15 year old me-

today is the last day of my life... as a 15 year old lol.

solitude.

2007-05-17T11:39:00.000+08:00

i just don't belong anywhere.. people just want me to dissapear. nobody is ever there for me (don't you dare say crap because you did not even prove that statement wrong) and everything just sucks.

this feeling is killing me. nomatter how much it hurts, nobody cares about it. just their own damn lives and they are so selfish(example: mark, patty little freak whos so damn childish still, syahmi: obsesssed mofo whos so lame) and like they care. i don't need you people, i can see through your lie so shut the hell up.

understand me? no. you don't even want to try. you just want me to dissapear. yeah i'm a distraction, i'm pulling you down. whatever its still my fault.

-save me-

the day falls and i'll say goodbye to my 15 year old self. its going to be another miserable birthday. just hurt and alone..

i'm just an empty shell left.. misery.

break more and more..

2007-05-16T15:33:00.000+08:00

social studies and physics paper today. crapped. social studies quite ok. anyhow do lol.

anyway between ss and physics was like long time so like stick with daryl, mark, syahmi and peiqi. somehow there is always this feeling of them wanting me to dissapear. just more places i don't belong.. just sucks so much. galston is sooo annoyingly jerkish.

after that they went up and joined eunice, serene and umairah. i went to library instead and nobody cared. my opinions never matter. anyway went to library since somebody will be freakish low on mood and won't be able to concentrate on studies if i continue to follow them. don't try to deny the hatred look in your eyes.

went out to get bubble tea them come back see that *toot* mark talk some lame crap. was rather not in mood already and somebody just showed the signs that i should dissapear. went off later. was staring into nothingness at hall then later got out because of the toot teacher say we cant enter hall yet. stare into nothingness till we can enter. later finished my paper rather fast(i do work seriously when out of mood) and slept. later when collecting my bag i get more attitude from them. going off see eunice wait for syahmi at the stairs again. later walked rather fast instead of joining those people since they just want me to dissapear.

just why does it hurt so much?!! is there just nowhere i belong? to dissapear is the only way eh? ...

-lost&broken-

it just hurts so much seeing you and knowing from your eyes that i don't belong. this feeling.. is taking control.. i'm losing hold of it..

day 2 hahas. change blogskin!!

2007-05-15T17:04:00.000+08:00

day 2 lol. yesterday had english paper 1 and maths paper 1. freako english write until hand pain diao.. anyway maths quite ok(think i fail) i only don't know two questions but rest unsure correct or not hahas. was doing the picture for my background but sis snapped the switch(her arm got red after that) and i lazy redo since i lost the original copy.

today was english paper 2 and humanities paper. quite ok hahas. after that like quite down on mood then walked home fast(always walk fast when no mood)

came home do my second picture(nothing to do already and like freak mood) then eunice came on and like chat while doing the picture lol! the first picture like got ghostly face(eunice found out) then like later i go see carefully then was like shocked hahas. see the picture at my photobucket album!! lol. spot the ghostly face!! =P hahas

anyways finished my picture, edited the template and wola. lazy configure the text colourings though hahas.

well.. good lucks to everyone else!! hahas

-cheer on~

oh yeah. thanks for reminding me about birthday again? lol hahas

played instead of study.. emptiness?

2007-05-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

well today did not really studied? lol..

mark called early in the morning then like i go back sleep awhile then later rush out. somehow meet syahmi on the train. later meet mark at woodlands mrt. huang hua so late so we go get some food(takoyaki again) then get huang hua and we go up timezone and play this "fishing" game. its like you must get loads of bricks in line which goes faster and faster up the level. getting to the top wins a major price(either samsung some real flat phone, motoraiza something something and sony walkman phone) lol.. quite hard. manage to get to top but always miss on the final one.. done. spent loads of money there..

go mark house play tennis but in the end play abit(somehow dont feel like playing anything) then like later we all go down swim lol. just float in the water and relax or something.. somehow don't really feel that good inside haha.. wondering whats that emptiness.. did not swim for quite some time so was like trying it out hahas. later just daze in the jacoozii(how spell?) hahas..

go back to timezone play then like quite ok. played the 'finishing' game again then later play some war game haha.. man we tried so many times today on that game and did not win anything.. anyway thrashed mark and syahmi on motorcross lol..

-g-

why am i feeling this empty.. man.. what is wrong...

take my test!! wahahaha

2007-05-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

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take my test? lol hahas.

sleep so much today.. so tired!! =X anyways after school walk with mark -.- that idiot go the nee soon east CC again lol. later go back home and like chat hahas. did not go study at Macs since like not that many people. instead tomorrow we going mark house study then play tennis hahas.

made my own test after taking Eunice's and Maxine's hahas. was bored and nothing much to do.. anyways today marks then end for lower sec mid year exams in my school. good lucks too all of you in recieving your results!!

god bless =)

-gareth-

so tired again.. lol

2007-05-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

freak today so tired. hahas as usual line up at perade square and that girl named Eunice came at rather the same time(near late) then stand back to the same place cause of mr chan. anyway was borring for chem.. ms ambi totally dont let me sleep then like freak! diao.. mr chan class still quite borring.

recess did not go eat. was at the piano room with shujian, xinfang and weiling. hahas shujian plays quite ok(misses alot of keys) then later honguan and wenxuan came in and wenxuan played first.. so nice!! melody from final fantasy 9 hahas. later honguan play then like was mocking him of not being able to read the scores lol(he cant read scores well, play by hearing) then like go back class earlier cause of bio practical. come out see that eunice like rather down(read her blog, she was unlucky today.. cheerups!! hahas take care) then later like walked rather fast(dont know why i walk that fast also hahas) and go back class take my stuff then go down for bio.

was feeling unwell halfway through the practical then was sleeping hahas. so.. did not really finish that thing -.- lol galston like trying so hard to finish it. later ss class was like copy some things then like mrs peh wake me up, i told her that i'm like feeling numb all over then later i was sleeping in her class, later at mr chan's class also.

tried so hard to walk to F&N class then later chat outside hahas. that eunice cant stop facing her back here =X ssad sad. anyways mdm gan came a bit late then we went in for some short briefing. darn she got so short memory!! hahas. she so freak forgetful -.- diao.. anyway like i handing in tomorrow since i forgot some stuffs today(my file so flat!!) lol hahas.

after school talk so much crap with mr chan that joanne walk out of the library to ask mr chan go lol!! hahas we started talking about physics then later go to prom night then even superheros lol!! was funny hahas. after that go northpoint with syahmi and mark then we walk around and like talk crap. syahmi say he will buy pencil case for me as birthday present then i tell him 'if you buy me that i'll buy you thongs(we were outside some crap lingerie shop) the day after(his birthday is after mine)" LOL! hahas. was crapping then.

bought sushi and ate that while walking home lol.

well to that unlucky girl, good lucks =) and also i'm always free to answer your questions =) take care.

-grth-

so tired.. falling sick =X

science center trip lol

2007-05-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

wahaha today was quite normal for most of time time, the morning still sooo warm and was like sweating like freak lol hahas. recess time daryl did not lock up the classroom and instead passed the key to lizhen who was studying there during recess. went down and eat but in the end like stomach feels weird and did not finish it(wasted ..)

after recess go library for structured revision and as usual, there was not any relieve teachers. so was like find things to read and just nice found this book on the cold war. did not have enough time to finish reading it though. physics had a small little test or something hahas then maths was like quite crappy too lol. chem class the HOD of science came in and was like for once the class so good lol!! the vice principal came in like so secretive(did not really notice her entry) then was like waa class soo good!! (LOL!! so not normal)

got a drink since the stupid snack store was filled with the stupid teacher who order so retardedly slow. board the bus and managed to slip through mdm gan's crap by simply saying i did not bring coursework lol hahas. slept on the way to the science center. did not really like the omnimax theatre haahs, the 3d effect or something felt so weird but the show quite interesting and also it had some funny parts together with cute parts(first showed this cell in the ear then later played music and the cell was dancing lol!) hahas quite nice.

walk of to the lab next and was listening about the stupid bacteria and also DNA crap again. man its so borring hearing them repeat hahas. the hands on quite ok even though that shu jian did not really manage to do it since wen xuan finished up all the bacteria sample -.- lol.. later just watch a small video hahas. in the end decorate our own crap then seal and hand in.

we only walked one round(more like only half) around the science center then we go to the macdonals to sastify our famished stomachs hahas. ate big mac extra value meal upsized again lol! i always eat the same thing -.- hahas then later order a hot fudge sundae.

went out and played with the crap thing called what kinetica audio something something LOL! stupid name.. then like wen xuan made the ball drop out from the 'near perfact' sequence -.- that idiot brag about top in physics diao.. bus trip back just plainly trying to sleep hahas. quite alot of thoughts so did not really get to sleep plus the bus was rather bumpy and erm some noise from the back of the class like screaming lol.

wahaha was like since cant sleep i just sat there then see charis dozing off lol cute! she resembles jinye so much lol and was like first trying to sleep by the window then later lean infront and placed her head on the back of the steat infront and slept. all the way till back to school then shujian and i woke her up and she was like so blur!! lol hahas.

anyways come back home was like play maple then later lost some mood since i just dont like being 'invisible' to others lol.. jinye finally came on msn and was like chatting even though i was in quite messed up situation but thanks again jinye=) hahas. darn so tired.. now is actually like 4.30 am cause i dozed off a bit just now and had been doing my coursework ever since lol. sighs.. theres still so much to do..

so tired.. flu..

2007-05-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

darn.. so tired today.. even now.. so i so don't feel like opening my eyes now hahas.

today quite ok. bio like get back my results then i just nice passed hahas. my luck always allows me to pass hahas. anyways peiqi got like more than me(finally lol) she at first got less then she found out that teacher count wrong then like so happy that she finally got more than me. oh ya i visited her to check everything and pass her some stuffs.

bought bubbletea today again hahas. this time xin fang and wei ling go outside eat so i don't need to order for them or face their complain then the shop like so crowded but luckily the uncle was fast hahas. went back later then like lizhen say i buy bubble tea did not tell them -.- diao.. lol.

somehow no teacher came in for structured revision then like cant seem to sleep in the library then was reading this book all about world war 2, day be day events hahas. come back home play maple with jasmine. so long diddnt see her so was like chat with her alot =)) hahas.

so bored =X

-getting sick is still part of life-

bubbletea!!

2007-05-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

wahahaa monday again. thought i would be killed for not having an MC because i did not even go see the doctor lol. anyway like gos chool as usual then later realise that i should have went the other way and go stright to class instead of following that idiot go the route to parade square. forgot that because of the exams we were supposed to go to class instead of parade square.

well there wasn't any PE class today then was like snoozing in class. everyone else was like so busy studying. PQ still not back in school(sad sad) and anyway i think theres something wrong with the noodle store. made my stomach bad after i eat it(the previous time i ate it cost me to get sick -.-) anyways english class was like so messed up. i had some big problems with my Hope essay cause like thats not something i would want to write about. had a hard time hahas.

after english was like lunc time then mark ask syahmi want go out buy bubbletea or not then syahmi like crap stuck at his seat. later i go out buy and those 2 pass me their order. walk to the bubbltea shop then like see peishan, daniela and marryann(how to spell your name??) at there eating their lunch or something hahas. peishan saw me then like "heyy!!" or something and since she was eating the sweet corn in a cup, she like scoop a spoonfull of it then like ask me open my mouth and she feed me lol!! hahas. placed my order then sit down and talk crap with them -.- anyways marryann help me pack the stupid thing into the plastic bag(i dont know how since i dont usually use the plastic bag lol) later just go back class and drink it hahas.

now now was like dont know why so tired after scholl thenr each home and took a erm two hour nap if not wrong hahas. man so tired.. now still feel tired. maybe cause of the noodles making me sick and my body is somewhat resistant to having that fever again so just some slight symtoms lol. anyways need to rest soon. so tired =X hahas. oh yeah called peiqi and she say she missed school together with everyone else.

-have hope and smile

Note: Hope(looking forward) is not the same as Faith(believing). Hope gives a person a sense of life and a resulting action is inevidable. Faith in the other hand is believing in someone or something which does not guarantee a future for believing in others brings no hope than believing in one self=)

(typed this mostly wiht my eyes close cause i dont feel like wasting that much time typing hahas. i blind-type far faster than normal tping so erm sorry for spelling mistakes cause i cant see anything anyway)

because it hurts

2007-05-06T12:55:00.000+08:00

hahahaahahahhahaaah hahahahahahaaah ahaahahahahahahahaahaa haa.. ha.. .

laughing because?? .. lol. (read previous post, i think i did mention this before)

its just so not fair. people always have someone to turn to when they are hurt. people always have someone to help them when they needed it. people always have someone to take care of them when they cant. giving warmth.. giving hope... giving love... .

i want to laugh!! hahahaa hahaah. ... laughing just ..

...

sick, then go movie? lol diao..

2007-05-05T18:04:00.000+08:00

thursday like eat laksa for recess lol, good thing i don't have tears!! that stupid laksa was like hot lol then normally some tears would come out hahas. anyways later got wet in the rain and then like erm go into air con room and eat some lousy instant noodles. felt sick later at night. thanks for all your concern!! (Eunice, JinYe, Umairah, Wen Sheng and a few more which i could not remember)

friday:
had a tough night(so hard to sleep with insomia!! sob) then woke up quite early in the morning and wanted to go to school. checked my temperature before doing anything and like wow.. i thought i was feeling fine hahas. later went back to sleep =) woke up like 2 hours later then like... lucky!! i found some panadol in my bag(left 3, thought i finished it) then later ate one(panadol extra should not be eaten that many at a go with empty stomach hahas =) called peiqi at like 9.40am lol! we like talk so much then like because she just woke up i as like teasing her hahas. shes like so cute lol!! so old already(shes 16 already wahahahaahha =P) but still like little girl haahs. anyways later like she asked me a few questions then some lectures? she also know the problems but like its not for any of us to solve =\ later got off phone at 1 or so then chat with eunice on msn. played game till like 2am then go sleep but still cant lol.

today(saturday may 5th?)
played a bit of game in the morning. later like still cant contact jasmine then like crapped with mark and later went out. that idiot was late(can't blame, he still looked sick) then go buy tickets, wait a while and go in hahas. we sat all the way in the front(we went so late -.-) then later like watch the show lol(obvious??) then like some parts were so hilarious!!! lol!!! cool graphics too hahas and also its scary at some points hahas. anyways after that mark went off then i like stay at causeway point awhile, then go the pasar malam and get some takos (takoyaki, japanese food!!) then like eat it outside the mrt station and like saw my cousin walk in(i think she noticed me all along) and like go up still like see her(somehow same train) then like i walk all the way to the end hahas. my cousin don't really know my real name -.- all my relatives call me by some other name hahas -.-

anyways came back and chat again =) diddn't see jas today though.

and erm.. well Eunice.. good luck and don't think too much. take your time and stay cheerful and not fustrated over it. and also, all the best =)

-gareth=)

wish you care that much always hahas

forgiven? hahas yay?

2007-05-03T16:28:00.000+08:00

hmms. sorry!! still in middle of replacing my sim card with a line.. darn dad so slow!!! sorry!! did not recieve that message of yours =X anyways thanks for forgiving me? =))

hahas those things you say sure makes me worried but knowing that you're fine makes the feeling better lol hahas.

why i always know what you are feeling? why do i always know about you? all those questions.. why don't you ask yourself and see the answer in my point of view? hahas..

anyways its already great knowing you hahas..

take care=)

-gareth-

you were breaking apart

2007-05-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

hey... i'm sorry!!

sometimes i just try to find things to say and just hope that for what i say it would have been some help to you.. i just want you to belive me.. nomatter how much i say, why cant you just belive me? i can swear that my words are true but why can't you just believe me?

you just wanted me to dissapear so much.. until you were on the brink of breaking apart.. even when i stepped in to help, trying to answer to whatever you asked, trying to bring back some sense to you, i still faced the blame. hey girl, life is horrible and i know that, just look on the bright side, atleast you still got people who truely care for you=) follow your heart, persue your dreams and don't you give up!

i want you to be happy, even if it means that there are some things i cannot do. i want to be there for you, i want you to believe me, to trust me.. i just wanted to help.. i'm sorry. i shouldn't have doubted you and shouted back at you.. i'm sorry..

don't always say that because its the past and therefore it should be removed, memories of the past should be remembered. learn from them. there are many things i want to say, but will you listen to my heart?

i just want you to know, that i will always be here, right where i want to. i am truely sorry for all those mistakes i have made. i just need a chance to start anew..

don't give up hope. i can be your light, if you want me to.

sorry..

-gareth-

i would have cried for you if i still have tears..

return of the pain

2007-05-02T19:44:00.000+08:00

bad luck today? lol.

was in rather nice mood lol hahas. until some things happened hahas.

hmms.. there are some things(more like people) which affects my mood easily.. i tried so hard but it just doesn't matter to you. sometimes you just don't know how much your words hurt.. there are so many things i want to say but you just don't want to know.. sighs..

-gareth-

something is missing, and thats hope.

sleepless night

2007-04-30T04:54:00.000+08:00

sighs.. can't seem to sleep..

some thoughts going through my mind hahas.. now i'm just feeling so empty.. that feeling of having nothing again.. its just sucks.

now i'm like wondering how am i going to continue my life. still no reason for most of everything =X haix. what i have made myself into.. something that does not shed tears even for the saddest story. something that has almost no feelings at all.. monster =)

i knew this was coming already but there was nothing i have done. i just shouldn't have made that mistake then, shouldn't have let go. so many things.. its way too late to apologise and seemed impossible to start anew. a broken heart now shattered into pieces too tiny to be seen, along with all the hopes and dreams =) hahas something like that.

theres nowhere i belong now. looking at others have their own life, friends, family and things. envy is the only thing? hahas. giving up was not only on you, but everything else. i wish i still had tears, to cry as much as i want =(

what lies ahead?

-gareth-

i'm so messed up..

hope?

2007-04-28T21:31:00.000+08:00

almost did not sleep since friday.

galston came online at like 5am then ask me things and i was like calling people in the morning. later go to school to meet everyone else. ms ling was late. somehow squeezed the 6 of us into her car then galston sat on my lap since no space and he squashed it hard. later reach the st. patrics school.

we wait there for registration then go up to the hall. first opponent was tanjonh katong girls' school then like at first chat a bit and the play. i managed to win by 2 points after giving my opponent lots of free points. all of us won except alvin(team captain). later against CCK sec and my opponent was some girl named victoria. was scary at first but managed to win her. final game was anderson sec. TJGS got thrashed by them then was like saying my opponent is a hard one. so i was like playing a bit more serious and managed to win him(that guy was like want to give up already) then later was like chat with those girls from TJGS then finish our ice cream and go off in the car again.

stopped at ang mo kio and ms ling treat us to KFC. later we go take bus to khatib and go the badminton court. eunice came later then we play. eunice quite a fast learner haha. was not able to feel much emotions. then was like straining my injured wrist. anyway long story. later go to khatib there to eat. i had no appetite what so ever. just felt so left out. later walk with eunice and galston. eunice went the other way around the dark park then i bring galston through the park then walk through it to get back again. should be all.

-gareth-

i no longer have feelings, tears and hardly any hope left. (just a bit more)

give up=)

not needed!

2007-04-27T16:54:00.000+08:00

i'm just not wanted, not needed and just need to dissapear. i don't want to reveal any names here so don't ask.

nomatter what i do its a waste. nomatter how hard i try it does not matter. nomatter what happens it does not matter. why am i doing everything? why am i putting my life into this? am i ever recognised? why do i have all these hopes?

it all seems so pointless. why can't i just give up? my tears dried out but why can't my heart just freeze up?

wonder how much more i can break my heart by doing all those things. wonder how much left of this heart of mine can be shattered until theres nothing left to. wonder when my body will break down because of all these hurt. wondering... just waiting.

-gareth-

loving was a mistake? no. leaving was that mistake!

anger management.

2007-04-24T17:28:00.000+08:00

daryl got a little to much today to result to physical. anyway, thanks to having peiqi around, i can't even hit him. eunice saw it(noticed her outside her class with umairah) then later just go down lol.

finally got my keychain hahas. after like 3 weeks of waiting -.-

haix.. my emotions are going a little out of control.. flaring up so many times.. oh yeah.. seems like Eunice still wants me to dissapear so theres nothing much i can do. at most just fulfil what she wants, staying away. so confused over what i should do.. haix.. i just need to get my stubborn and dumb self to wake up.. sighs..

wish i never made that mistake but.. regretting is just too late.. sigh.. wondering what should i do..

so many things to think about. so think this will be all..

-gareth-

i so did not call kevin to get the present. umairah asked him to go then she pushed the blame to me saying that i told kevin to go. but never mind anyway. dislike me all you need.

sigh.. haix. 3 birthdays today..

2007-04-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

well.. 3 birthdays today... so erm.. Happy Birthday to Kerensa, Naqi and Kevin..

haix.. anyways.. been feeling so bad..

thanks Eunice.. i have always wished to be there for you hahas but seems more like you were there for me and cheered me up when i needed it.. thank you so much.. but there are some things that never end and i just can't force things on you. thank you so much anyway.

went shopping for kevin's present(did not know itw as shopping for his present) then later like also did not know that eunice was tagging along. walked to northpoint with all of them, somehow just got some things i cant take it. anyways walked around and like erm.. never mind.. Eunice bought a mug.. haha..

sighs.. anyways later just erm.. walked home in the rain and let my thoughts run through me.. was erm.. quite ok since i just let go of everything in the rain. just some things i can't let go..

well i just have one special wish in my mind but i don't think it will EVER come true.. one wish and one alone.. might as well forget it hahas.. some things can only be found in dreams..

hahas.. take care all! ..

-gareth-

that was all i wanted, all i needed, but.. things don't always go the way you wanted..

once just a chance

2007-04-16T15:02:00.000+08:00

that chance was there for myself but i threw it away. now the chance is gone, all i can do is regret. but even regretting does nothing. from this shattered lies hope, but how far can that hope bring?

"i can promise you eternity.. if you promise me your stay"
haha song lyrics.

that discontented look on your face just hurts. yeah its still not yet the right time even though you said that things changed. well it did but just not that much of enough. all i can do is just to wait but will anything come? even after i thought i have let go of you, that overwhelming feeling came back the moment i touched you, all those memories, that feeling..

"just so you know.. this feelings taking control.. of me. and i can't help it"
hahas this part of the song just went pass

it was just naive of me to think that i can take off my mask and just be free but i got proven wrong. now its in you, without knowing that just happens and you just go away. i'm such an naive idiot=) well this is just the price i have to pay.

-gareth-

I is smaller than 3U

' ' "and i'll wait for as long as it takes

bbq at mark house; speech day!!

2007-04-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

hahas speechday in the morning quite borring. thought i was late but in the end some people even later hahas. anyways go there see the stupid lunch of the F-15 model and crap hahas. anyways was mood spoiled by daryl again!! -.- so after that like stack up the chair then go down and meet up discuss awhile then eunice go get ther boots then go home get changed and pick up her stuffs at home. so later wait at northpoint then i change my racket grip while waiting. eunice and umairah came then we actually left wei xi and xin fang behind since those two like keep dissapering.

anyways after that go woodlands then ask to meet up with wei xi and xin fang later at station but they go to causeway point then call them no answer and things. so oh ya before that went to cold storage then eunice and umairah bought another pack of wood chips(thanks) then go off to mark's house. move those things down then like wait to get lighter then after that start fire. later while i cook the rest of them went up play then i was like left alone there. felt bad after thinking for quite some time then some anger built up. anywas later like they come down finally and take over some cooking then like they can't handle to fire and was like i go there and pop start fire then eunice say 'can feel some anger in that' because i like bad mood then like scary lol. anyways the guard before was like see me start the fire again then like 'waa power eh??' lol! i fan so fast hahas.

later we went up then chen chao and erm lin chao(i think thats the name) playing tennis with each other then erm so went down with eunice and umairah. stayed down there cook a bit then later like while they(mark and don't know who) we(me, eunice, umairah, lin chao) go up. they chao play basketball then like umairah and eunice play tennis. its like cute lol! those 2 girls can serve but cant really hit. later i go play with eunice since umairah tired then like eunice broke her own record(returned 2 hits) and like so happy? hahas. later team with eunice versus mark then later syahmi came and then me and syahmi versus mark. that idiot mark!! his ball i was waiting for it to come then its spin suddently make the ball come towards my face then had to deflect it with racket and.. out!! -.- stupid move copied from Prince Of Tennis. umairah and eunice went down.

go down, grab something to eat then eunice melting her mush mellows(still don't know how to spell this thing..) then i just sit there then like crap no drinks. got a shower(washed hair only anyway) then go back there and eunice don't recognise the towel(she hugged it at the scuba diving thing last year at march) then like later follow her and help her carry those things back to mark house and those 2 depart like 'thank you auntie!!' hahas cute. later walk them to the gate there then bid farewell. went up and just watch them play tennis then later talk with chen chao.

rain so go shelter there talk then like later syahmi came and was like.. scary.. bleeding so much!!(i don't like blood) then like eeeew disgusting.. anyway later like ask him do this and that to stop the blood then let him rest there awhile for blood to stop then later he go bath then i call peiqi. wanted to get some first aid for syahmi but no bandage -.- anyways later just go mark house and rest. instead of playing cards in his room we were like reading comics since there were so many. after that played a bit of cards then i was trying to send sms but then found out like problem. something wrong =X anyways was smsing with syahmi's phone.

later just watch some parts of prince of tennis movie(because mark keep skip to fast forward) but we went back later. buy the topup prepaid on the way but later can't top up since got problem even calling the prepaid topup. after that just go back home. sent the last message then like walk quite fast home and get online hahas.

tomorrow need go church -.- since someone asked me to go lol. anyways take care all =))

-grth

I is smaller than 3U

happy birthday pq!!

2007-04-07T11:34:00.000+08:00

first of all.. .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIQI!!

hahas yesterday celebration, today can only wish you happy birthday =X
was fun after everything and also good that you're feeling better now. everyone was like so worried for you and stuffs and that daryl is just still too much!! =X

anyways today was like still feeling weird over grace's words last night. then because totally cant find any prepaids around was like trying to call daniela since morning then the usual 'hi! daniela here, i'm busy right now.. ..' bla bla quite long then later got some music lol! only got through later at like 5+ then i used the last of my message credit to sms grace. later called her then in the end went out to get the prepaid from don't know what stall hahas.

mark and chen chao was like keep asking for grace's number then wahahaahahaa some parts cay say lol! anyways grace gave permission to give them her number. sms grace then also oh yeah! afternoon was playing maple with jasmine! hahas got her to agree to go to mark's don't-know-what-crap next saturday. oh ya, good lucks jas!(she going to chiong maple again)

anyways should be all. still feeling weird =X so confused..

-grth

more craps from me!! :

to be fast, that no one could reach
to be strong, that no one could beat
to be smart, till no one could think
but of all else.
to be there, where no one else could
to be you, who no one else replaces.

ice skating, pq's party!

2007-04-07T01:04:00.000+08:00

lol. meet up with pq early in the morning at 10.30 then managed to shock her when i was hiding behind the wall and 'boo' at her then she shocked hahas. anyways later go off with pq to meet umairah.

go cck there meet up with chen chao and mark, later did not have lunch and instead went over to jurong then had our lunch at kfc. pq and i ate almost the same, only burger different. umairah was the only one without cheese fries. anyways we ate finish then go walk around while waiting for daniela and friend(Grace) then like i go find those two girls and we went up. pq, umairah, chen chao and i skated first. mark did not want to skate(his new almighty coverse shoe-.-) then daniela and grace went to have their lunch. later daniela and grace came in and skate with us.

i fell twice. first was this girl bump into me then i fell directly with that girl on me. slammed on my wrist with the key in my glove. totally hurt. entire wrist hurts after that, near the bone. second time i fell was chen chao pushing me then the ice was uneven due to those idiot pros skating so fast and cutting the ice up and my skates were quite blunt already. then i skipped and fell then chen chao's skate came onto my hand and i quicky moved it but it still bled. anyways after that its pq's harsh treatment again and got a plaster over.

daniela and grace went off first to get the cake in secret and also their time was out. anyways we went off later to drag time. went down after some time then we go to the food court. surprise pq with the cake then sing birthday song hahas. ate cake after. xinfang and weixi came so late so they missed it but anyways we went to K Box after a long time deciding then also after xinfang and weixi eat their dinner. had fun there hahas(though the cost -.-) then like some events happened and most of us was upset. but think everyone's fine hahas. found out why grace asked me am i okay or not hahas.

went off then we each alight at our respective mrt stops. after the rest of them go off, was left with grace and i. walked with her slowly and we just chat. after that was at the playground below grace's block then just sit there and talk. was a erm.. interesting time there.. thank you so much grace!! Grace.. thank you so much for bring back some feelings into my numbed heart. and also there are many other things i should thank you on=) see ya

take care all, peace!
-grth

friends of my own.

2007-04-05T16:43:00.000+08:00

won't be saying much about what happened today.

those won't even be my friends if it was not for you,
and they are your good friends.
they care for you in countless way more than me,
and with your presence i dissapear from their mind.
they are your friends, so be there for them too.

Friends of my own.

so tired!!

2007-04-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

NAPFA yesterday so tired!! sad sad like because my own shoe was wet so i wore my bother's sneakers and ankle socks. then the sneakers made the back of my heel hurt =X then like walk also hard so pain!! i ran the shutter run on bare foot at perade square!! hurts =X anyways not that pain hahas. sit up made my ab muscles numb =X anyways the standing board jump i did not score that good =X sad sad.

anyways after that when going home my bro message me ask me faster go home. actually i had some extra but in the end i walk to corner, take off those sneakers then i sprint out of school(umairah said i ran very fast) then i started to brisk walk after unning up the slope. i just decided to run because of my second reason. can't say much only that its personal lol. later go to under my block and wait for my sis' van to come then later just pick her up. diao. go home and then eunice came on then chat abit hahas. was so tired after that =X

today.
soooo tired in the morning =X slept in bio and chem class. later like erm eat abit then maths class lucky was not mrs yee. i forgot do her homework =x. anyways wore my bro's sneakers cause my shoes still dont want to dry. wear longer ankle socks and put the plaster hahas. had a hard time walking cause it hurts so much!! lol.

after school go to maths remedial with xin fang again(waiting for lizhen) then later go off to meet mrs lam together with lizhen hahas. lizhen discuss about her comprehesion then later i had my oral practice and also mrs lam teach me how to properly do it. thanks!! =) need to work harder for my oral =)

came back home. chat abit. went down fetch my sis, come back home then chat and later go play maple and found eunice online. that cute little girl. she went off earlier to rest. sweet dreams eunice=) anyways. bro nagging about how to fix his stupid blogskin -.- lol.

take care all!!
-rev

tried so hard to forget..

2007-04-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

today nothing much. wake up then mark tried to get me to go out and waste time? lol.

watched prince of tennis all the way then later chat with eunice in the afternoon. its like erm feeling numb over my emotions but anyways atleast she had fun haha. was fun chatting with her? lol. like just chatting with her about what happened on saturday.

anyways evening jasmine ask me check on the maple event. was stupid, that gm did not reinforce the server before the event(the server crashed just now) then like everyone was disconnected.

night time chat with umairah and jinye. lol like just talk crap then hmms. that jinye studying lol weird did not know that shes such a hardworking girl =X

hmms nothing much in my plain life i think.

-grth

sighs. tried so hard to forget you but in the end it was still futile.
that shouting complain from that idiot mum just broke everything
forgetting is just so hard. but knowing the truth hurts more.
follow your own path. sighs. this is my path which i walk.

skating? movie hahas

2007-03-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

hmms yesterday spam sms then today in the end did not skate =X hahas

so so was like waiting till like almost 3 then get changed. was watching prince of tennis before that hahas. after that wanted to walk to yishun mrt but rained =X was in luck cause the bus just nice came. was a bit late but still met up with umairah before going to admiralty mrt and meet jasmine, took some time to find her though. then we set off the chua chu kang.

at there since it was raining heavily, we did not go chen chao's house and instead went to lot1 and like nothing to do so i ate at macdonals. jasmine ordered a coke but i forgot how much it cost so can't give the her change, in the end it just counted as i threat her to that drink hahas. so so i eat my big mac set while waiting for those 2 idiots to arrive. they walk around lot1 -.- lol.

after that we go jurong there then go over to the dont-know-what shopping mall. was still raining so like i walk on the right side(beside jas) since the wind was blowing from there. later at the crossing i share umbrella with jasmine then chen chao share with mark. umairah used her own umbrella. i got a bit wet since i'm still on the right side hahas. after we just walk up to the fuji ice palace thingy and wait for hilary.

could'nt recognise hilary with makeup and short hair =X lol so like later we went out(since the time slot for the ice rink opening was cancelled) then like was outside the k-box discussing weather to go in or not hahas. in the end we went down then buy movie tickets for mr. bean's holiday. jasmine watched it last saturday but still watch it again today. anyways we went to the arcade beside while waiting. later we buy our snacks(mine was nacho with coke, jasmine was hotdog with coke then mark and chen chao share nacho with coke) and go to our seats(from left to right: mark, chen chao, umairah, me, jasmine) then we had a great time laughing hahas.

went to the arcade and play after the movie. tried playing basketball then like later me, jasmine and mark play the daytona thing. jasmine was first!! that idiot mark after crashing he go in reverse and bang us -.- crashed into me twice. that idiot!! -.- anyways i was second(obvious) lol! played time crisis 3 after that hahas. jasmine scored so well. for me, my score was like half that of jasmine(first time played time crisis3, usually play 2 only. not familiar with the weapon change) so like heck the gun hates me!! i use it then like it offshoots abit to the right. so hard to aim =X

after that just walk back then take mrt hahas. cc alight at chua chu kang, mark at woodlands, jasmine at admiralty, umairah and i at yishun. after i just walk home since i still don't get the hang of taking transports(gets me headache) and then now i still feel dizzy and also slight headache hahas. ate panadol but still not much effect=X

quite fun after everything ;DD
take care all!! ciaos

-rev

happy bday nJ

2007-03-31T00:15:00.000+08:00

hmms first of all, happy birthday nJ. lol.

okok. yesterday, friday. got like some pc lesson in the morning then later some crap then go recess already. after recess mt period we got taught by mrs yee(the vice principal) for relieve. like maths class hahas. anyways learnt some interesting things there hahas. and mrs yee gave us all a red file for her maths structured revision lessons hahas.

after that english got essay test then went off after. was like met yin lun then like slowly walk till it started to rain quite heavily. then like go to yin lun house to like just waste time then also dry up? hahas ate lunch at his house. oh yeah!! his house.. so big =X hahas. so like play some crap games with him then like just laugh at craps. came home like 5+ almost 6 hahas. my stupid shoe flooded with water lol.

come back is watch video then later just play some games. so bored lol. should be all haha..

so all ya peeps out there, take care!!

-rev

remembered to buy painkiller!

2007-03-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

hmms today quite a break. 3 periods of f&n free since mdm gan was at a meeting with some director or something. anyways like so many periods of mr chan. the ss class, one of the two periods of it was taken off by mr chan because mrs peh had to go for a meeting also. then i just slept through it(too tired) anyways bio was borring hahas. was just doing my ss while at bio anyway. lol. anyways was like acompany xinfang quite alot =X haii shes like so heartbroken or something =X quite messed up

after school go with mark to the CC then later go the CK department shop buy my painkiller!! last night was quite a killer hahas. so like bought Panadol EXTRA and also a shirt since i was there -.- anyways later went to pasar malam(night market) buy takoyaki(octupus ball) while mark buy some burger thing. that tako wait so long since the auntie only started to cook it when i order -.- diaos.. anyways later walked home in the rain. was walking slowly again haha..

came home and like chat with someone. its rare that we had such chats anyway. those where you just speak freely. yeah thats rare =X

anyways take care everyone out there(if anyone reads this in the first place)
-rev

waiting, just waiting for you.

sighs.. pain..

2007-03-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

long day at school.. got back my erm.. yogurt then like er.. haha..
come back home after staying till quite late at school..
english thing.. haha talk to mrs lam about things..

so erm.. come back er.. chat haha... then erm..
sighs.. just remember.. it rained when i walk home.
was erm slowly walking through the rain.. hahas..

sighs. because it rained i walked the park route and did not go pass the pharmacy so erm.. forgot to buy the painkiller.. so just now was like regretting i did not buy it..

was like having serious chest pain then like.. damn why did i not buy it?! sighs.. anyways its mostly gone now hahas..

heys heys. i'll always believe what you say and in what you do!! sighs.. people just doubt me..

-gareth-

sighs..

2007-03-27T20:34:00.000+08:00

hmms today: went to school as usual? lol hahas so like erm have 3 periods of mr. chan in the morning(2 periods of maths) then later after recess english then bio. quite fun hahas we made yogurt!! lol boil the milk then stare at it and wait for bubbles to appear hahas. then after that wait for it to cool. LOL! like stare at it again and wait for it to cool then keep removing the evaporated layer of drie dmilk lol. then like after that rush to cool it by running under tap water hahas. anyways pour it into a container then write name and put at back of classroom hahas. after that go back for chemistry lesson.

practically looking at the person in front only? hahas anyways was quite dull since i was like stare and daydream(so totally not in mood for studies hahas) so like lunch time!! just went down with umairah and serene(waited for them quite long to get out of toilet -.-) so so, after lunch went to study room for structured revision(i dropped MT)

so like mdm au was teaching us maths(another 2 periods) then was like do some maths question(thanks for teaching=) so like later go to 4C classroom and join the remedial(though i was not selected) then like just do my english and then later xinfang came in(was there for remedial was because xinfang asked me to company her -.-)

acompany her then also teach her and then help her with some of her problems with Someone hahas. was like chatting with her then later mr. chan come and talk with us(plus wei ling who came in after A maths) then like later go off. can't find mrs lam in the end -.-

anyways thats soooo not my mood now wahahaah-.- act quite well lol. screamed at a friend just now after getting pissed up and snapped. then like felt so blank after screaming. diaos.. anyways just another sigh hahas =) sigh sigh sigh sigh~ hahas

take care ya all!
-gareth-

i think over what you said when i try to chat with you
feeling the fear of that happening again.
thinking of you wanting me to shut up and dissapear
and just regretting that i was so stupid in the past
to ever do and say those stupid things that upset you
but the past is there, the present passing, and the future unwritten
it just hurts so much

so speechless

2007-03-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

sighs.. so speechless.. anyways heres some of the things that happened.

friday. was quite borring. since she wasn't on much and was so busy and ignores me quite alot. then later at night she went off. anyway hate that feeling of jealousy.

saturday. got screamed at hard. my fault anyway. just my fault for asking. so its all i get. big scolding time. sighs.. that hesitative feeling again. anyways was trying to apologise. miss her after that..

sunday. though she unblocked me and was online for a period of time. i was practically speechless. spent a whole lot of time thinking and can't seem to concentrate on game. later on at night play till like almost 3am. wanted to do homework but later found out i forgot to bring my file home. later went back to game. screamed at a whole lot of noobs in game and have the rest of them calling me to relax.. lol.. anyways after that dragged to like pass 3am then sleep(i think) since i cant seem to sleep..

today. bad rainly weather in the morning. was like just walk slowly(for once)even though it was going to rain. then later started to rain but just walk slowly. got a little wet only. that girl got wet much more lol. later got pe. spent some time laughing at mr wong then later go gym awhile then go down play abit captain ball. after that got abit maths. somehow it seemed long lol. english 3 periods do newspaper article and reflection then later lunch then two more periods of english. made daryl sit more font so can block view. its like syahmi sit beside her then daryl sit beside me and i get him to block view

was trying to cheer up xinfang(she actually cried) then also help peirong and xinfang with english. anyway today was so distracted. still thinking over that screaming lol.

so later come back quite late then she came on. finally chat with her. lol.

sighs so distracted. and also painfull lol haha. thanks everyone.

-gareth-

love hurts =(

finally online..

2007-03-21T22:41:00.000+08:00

sighs. no internet connection for the past few days. so have been like playing warcraft while trying to pass time .. hai.. miss chatting with her so much while no connection.. sighs...

feeling so mixed up =X hai..

anyways today is like rained last night so this morning erm ground wet so line up at class again. anyways like erm.. that eunice wonder why for 3 days in a row she stand at the conrner there between guys and girls, instead of being with her friends during the assembly. anyways like hai.. shes always there when walk back to class.. lo -.-

so like today chem practical is killer. the lab filled with ammonia!! stinks like crap. made my nose hurt =X anyways like after that go back class lol. english we listen to this song Do I Make You Proud by Taylor Hicks. quite nice song. at first feeling quite depressed due to the lyrics(the meaning in that song) but later like still okay hahas. so like go home after english hahas. oh ya finished and passed up ss first lo.

anyways reach home some time later like 3+ if i'm not wrong then finally have internet connection again. yay? hahas. was quite excited then later mood broke =X but thanks to that sweet eunice. got back some mood hahas. thanks!! =)

well missed You so much hahas =X
-gareth-

sometimes it just hurts when i think about you,
but i just miss you so much when you're not around.
but nomatter how deep that hurt is,
it's still me and i'll just have to live with it.
love ya =)

how it ends

2007-03-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

this week.. a very nostalgic one..

met her at tuesday. same as that 365¼ days ago on that day..

friday. went to city hall with alvin because he wanted to get changed(even though he did not eventually) but saw that place.. that place where me n her was there. where she changed out of the p.e. shirt and into the shirt we all get.

just now.. went to take a bath then was finding a towel. went to the room and look for a towel without having on the lights. so picked a ramdom one. after bath when trying to get dry. found out that its That towel.. the one we all got when he go for the scuba crap. the towel eunice hugged because she was cold.. that towel..

everything just brings back.. to the week a year ago.. sighs..

hmm.. other stuffs haha. was like qurreling or something with a 'good friend' then like cause was feeling bad since i got screamed at yesterday. so like just now was even more crap.

what are friends who don't care? yeah i know its totally my fault and i'll bare that pain alone. thank you, for those memories i thought gone. for the fun times i had thanks. and also thanks for cheering me up those times. guess this is it.

this is how it all ends. like that ever mattered.

peace all.

(nomatter how much it hurts. its still me)

changed so much

2007-03-16T20:38:00.002+08:00

for all i have noticed this morning is that i have changed soo much! was thinking back after that. i can like just threaten my little sis with the cane and feel nothing. thinking back into the past about it.. it hurts me to see her cry and like i care so much for her.

but anyways was like dad came back and threaten my youngest sis with cane because she was crying when my other sis does not want to give her some crap. then was like i did not feel like any hurt or something for my youngest sis just that i feel much more hate for what he have done to me.

so was like chatting with Her also then like told her some parts of my life. She understood why i hate my parents that much.. anyway thanks again. chatting with You really smoothen my mood. thanks, cant thank you enough for cheering me up countless times =))

messed up day

2007-03-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.. past few days have been like busy rushing for this game event haha. took breaks mostly when She is online(chat with her lo) so like until this morning around 1.30 or so i went off. the game event is at 4am in the morning(level as much as possible before it) bla bla explaining the event is long lo.

anyways today was like quite messy haha. sms kerensa in the morning then like no reply then later call chen chao to confirm the time we meet. so like in the end kerensa not going so went to meet mark and chen chao at yishun there at 12.30

later go over to toa payoh there then alvin late -.- haha was like we walk around then later get something to eat and drink at burger king. haha the performers(not participants) since soo nice xD so like quite some time after the second round(1st round in morning) then we find the rest of them. ernest, hou wen, damien, leona, omella. hwee tin and charis. then like later kx, wei ming and darrell appear haha. some of them sing quite nice. got this small little kid at first i thought was what pretty girl singing(was not at the scene that time) so like later find out its a kid. like shocked lol!

haii later go off after alvin's turn was postponed to sunday. walk around then later me and alvin went to pasir ris. later like reach there kerensa can't come out then like just go around. went to downtown east haha. sigh alvin was like at first irritated then later low mood =X anyway came back after that. alvin was like so silent for the entire trip. sad sad. anyway came back chat with Her hahahahaha =P

tatas. good lucks to all the girls tomorrow for campus superstar!!
take care all

happy bday

2007-03-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

hmm happy birthday to my youngest sis and that dad of mine..

haha.. a strawberry cake .. sad thing wasn't able to laugh or smile haha..

sighs feeling so bad.. just thinking about her.. then remembering yesterday.. darn this is going to be a very hard holiday.. its painful.. sighs well don't really think i can do anything.. sighs

this is so hard..

2007-03-10T11:32:00.000+08:00

sighs some things happened on friday.. dont want to mention them and also dont want to remember them.. until now still feeling erm.. quite hurtfull.

was quite erm.. depressing then like needed someone to like acompany me so like daniela was like talking crap with me till like 6++ then like later send her to her block. any ways thanks haha.

hmm so like after that go back home then like chat with umairah and daniela on msn. like no mood play game so like just chat lo. later like at 11+ umairah ask me go listen to 98.7fm radio lo. was listening it off the internet then like wait for her dedication while chatting with her .. anyways wait like 2 hours or so then like listen to that dedication then like says there she go slight fever. so get well soon=)

hmm and also congratulations to Eunice and PQ for passing that test=)

sighs~~

wish i was dumb, so that i can't remember those things
wish i am a tree, so that i can enjoy the winds all day
wish that i am dust, so that i can travel the world with wind
wish that you are there, just look at you all day
wishes.. don't really come true.

damn life

2007-02-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

fine. i'm the idiot who can do nothing but pissing you up. i stress your aready stressed up life even more and i cant do any good. fine. I'LL SHUT UP AND DISSAPEAR HAPPY?!

like that ever matters. for me who was once existed only in a world of me alone and feeling the loneliness in this freaking world, it won't kill me to feel that crap again. it hurts but i still live. nothing matters because nobody bothers.

whatever i do doesn't matter because you dont care. i'm the pathetic idiot who you hate and just want me to dissapear from this universe or even you diddn't even want me to exist in that first place. thats what you feel deep in your heart eh.

i'm a pathetic loser that people hate. i'm a moron that cant do anything good. nobody needs a retard like me. why do i exist? to forget you? yeah i want to do that so badly. because of your existance it gave me a reason to stay alive. i SO want to forget you. hate me for being SO DAMN USELESS AS TO NOT BE ABLE TO DO THAT SIMPLE TASK!

argh forget it. like anything ever matters. a living body a dead soul=) either way i know i'll die soon. my body won't be able to last long, i know it as i can feel it breaking down. its gettin weaker and weaker and i'm just pushing my limits each time.

everything sucks. don't think i'll be blogging for quite some time.

fcked up

2007-02-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

things that happened today:

-waited for eunice to come on
-felt really really bad
-chat with eunice
-made her pisssed up
-got scolded by her
-severely no mood
-crapped out by felicia
-daniela place an order on a damn hard to make blogskin
-chat with umairah
-played gunz and dota
-severely out of mood again due to some things
-eunice goes off suddently Again
-felt extremly pathetic

bla bla bla DAMN MY FCKING LIFE SUCKS!
DAMN MY LIFE!

arghhhhhhhh feeeling sooo damn bad....... arghh heck.
anyways if i say this to somebody, she'll just go 'what ever' or maybe even 'your problem' bla bla bleh.. argh damn this. me and my stupid life! argh..

damn.. freak my life.. just damn this stupid life of mine.. so freaking hard!!

its just so hard loving someone and yet impossible to not love. argh dammit.

church with eunice

2007-02-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

lol.. today woke up late.. anyway on comp early in morning then clar was online.. then she ask me go to some concert then i reply i'll go if eunice is going. then later after school, before the science remedial clar went to ask eunice.. then she said yes then in the end.. lol obvious i went to that concert lol..

so after that went home then wait awhile.. later change(white top and jeans) then went out.. walked slowly then was like 3 min early haha.. anyway clar abit late then wait for her.. eunice came soon after clar.. see her.. wah.. anyways shes wearing white top with jeans also hahas.. cute girl=)

anyways later go in to the dont know what thing.. then find out seats(mine beside eun) then later like change place then like found joanne.. -.- .. she was like sitting at the row behind us hahas.. later the concert like some parts quite sad.. the performer tried very hard not to cry out =X then later at end of concert.. darn.. sigh.. better not say out.. haha..

well take care eunice =) see you. sweet girl haha..

so after concert like walked eunice to that traffic junction then erm.. slowly walk home.. feeling so down.. hahas.. came home then chat with umairah and jinye.. sigh..

take care everyone=) sigh Eunice that girl.. >.<

tired but fun hahas

2007-02-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

today like soo tired!! lol sleep at around 1+ then wake at 5+ do my f&n hahas. later go to school like soooo tired!! lol

was sleeping in school.. darn mr chan dont let me sleep.. diao nevermind after that mt class still sleep hahas. then rest was quite borring. oh ya geog class mrs yap got angry then shouted at class because we take too long to settle down. then english erm do group work hahas dont know why i get the presentation role again.. hahas was okay =)

so lunch time went down with mark then cant finish my food.. somehow feel bloated =X anyways was eating with pq and daryl hahas. after that go cookery room for f&n was funny lol when mdm gan ask who can hand in today nobody react hahas. so later got some homework then mdm gan went off to do dont know what so i went to sleep. after f&n on my way out was like sleepy then doze off while walking and bump into charis(sorry) then was like shocked!

after that avoided mdm naier then went home hahas.

came home like wait for Her to come on then later like she busy with her F&N then also ask alot of stuffs hahas. cute little girl xD so like help her abit then was like forgot what i was doing.. hmms.. oh ya reading wikipedia hahas. after that like chat with her more then she finished and went to watch videos hahas. so was like bored then played gunz awhile then she came back on. quitted the game and then like chat with her. oh ya watched bleach episode 116 just now while she also watch her show. hahas quite nice=)

so she went of then was like nothing to do so like upload songs then also chat. first added jasmine and felicia(alvin's girl) together then those two like no reaction then also quite borring hahas. later jas went off so i added jinye(the shy chio bu) in then like talk crap hahas because like she is shy over me calling her chio lol!! later we like drawing around then so fun hahas. draw craps then felicia like watch only because she don't have the handwrite thing hahas. but was fun=) after that jinye got some stuffs to do then went off hahas. sigh need sleep earlier tonight then later tomorrow early in morning around 4am wake up do my f&N! wahaha again

take care everyone!! =)

omg..

2007-02-20T14:40:00.000+08:00

gosh.. what have i done.. ?!

its not really my doubts that were cleared.. more like yours..

did i do the right thing? i feel like i'm minupilating your thoughts again.. i'm sorry!!

feels bad.. hurts me when i think about you.. that feeling..

why.. sigh

hope.. just hopes..

-rev
love you

bad new year mood.

2007-02-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last blogged....

valentines day(gave Eun a keychain and a box of chocos) was not long ago and now its chinese new year eve..

thing is... i just feel horrible...

felt all the pain possible.. just hurts so much.. remember all those pain i once felt.. remember that nobody is ever there when i need them.. remember so many stupid things.. just hurts...

seems like somebody blocked me again.. ....

was feeling very very bad then went in to maple. in the end felt EVEN WORSE thanks yo jasmine ignoring me AGAIN..

.. cried out.. again.. dont know why.. just feels so.. bad..

i'm just breaking apart and no one notices it.. cool... .

where are You...

-rev

let my pain bring me sorrow
let my tears tell the truth
no matter how hard it is
no mater how much it hurts
i still live on
time still continues
and i'll be waiting for you

eternal wait...

sigh... just feeling so bad.. ......

back? sigh that eun

2007-01-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

sigh finally back to blogging hahas

friday :
quite borring. slept through mother tongue, geog class we officially exited naqi's group then me and daryl spent some time discussing about the project then rest of it we just talk about other stuffs hahas. after school went to ms ling's english class then after that follow pq and daryl have lunch, buy stuffs for the project and did some minor stuffs under pq's block. talked and then it rained. was down with mood sad hahas. anyways i think i saw eunice's dad when it rained(saw someone and eunice said that her dad left the house at that point of time) anyways went back home and chat with eunice.

saturday :
was at home all day.. play dota, chat on msn, listen to music and stuffs hahas. did a little bit of research and then like mostly just chat with eunice=) quite a borring day lol. eunice's so cute!

sunday :
played abit. then like chat with eunice in the afternoon. later played dota again(i think) and then oh ya sort of screamed at kerensa and pq(both same reason) pq diddnt make a reply.. kerensa was like apologise.. sigh that kerensa.. anyways dont think i'll hate her for that=)

after screaming at pq that night. i passed her the links to the infomation i got from researching(she pass on to daryl) then like after that i just went off. tried to sleep at 10 or so but instead just roll in my bed till 2am i think. finally slept..

monday :
soo tired!! maybe because of my lack of sleep hahas.. anyways was like pe borring and oh ya was still angry with pq. anyways geog class me and daryl explain to the teacher about out project and like we did some craps. after recess bio class i did not talk to pq at all.. then like still no mood. xin fang somehow guessed that i had a qurrel with pq lol and then like oh ya i keep standing at the window claiming that the wind is very nice(actually because of mood) then like xin fang come and talk to me and i just say the wind is nice hahas(i think she can tell that its the mood)

after school did not bother to stay back and wait for them. went home and at the stairs down met xin fang and she said some things hahas. chat with eunice after i came back. like stuffs happen hahas..

today :
pq and daryl had some problems because pq was so tired that she slept early yesterday and like went did not pick daryl's call. anyways daryl he.. sigh nevermind..

so recess time like eunice came over to find pq then like pq tried to talk to daryl. eun so cute lol! she try read book, turn over at pq then try to read again. later turn back and look at pq and went back to read again. finally turn to pq and ask her to speak softer(she can't concentrate) then like lol! cute hahas. after that like pq went back to sit beside eunice and i went to find her. then like talk to pq then eunice keep trying to eve drop. anyways shes so cute hahas. bio class again was like darn i'm so sleepy!

english class i was like recieve my essay(lucky i passed xD) then like did my maths. after english was maths aready. did some changes to my homework then hand it in to mr chan. lunch time went to eat with pq and daryl. eunice tagged along then like daryl very unhappy then i have to cater to daryl again.. this attitude is killer =X anyway eunice apologised afteerwards(because she did not want pq to sit with daryl and instead like tagged along pq-daryl's jealousy claiming that eunice is selfish) darn after that we talk. we as in me, pq and daryl. then like talk until i asked daryl to go for mother tongue class. mostly was about eunice.. daryl doesnt really like her..

anyways mother tongue class was like i do the geog thing. diddnt have much mood. daryl came to sit beside me.. so like after that go over to the maths remedial class at 4C then like i did my geog class there hahas. anyways was like quite easy the maths thing =X

after that went under pq's block to do the geog.. we talk and have abit of fun there while doing the geog. anyways went home after that.. met justin, yin lun n gordon at the park there.. those kids play some game at the playground lol! anyways like went there and bugged them. later met regina and daniela and like went off to talk crap lol! cant reveal much. walked to bubbletea shop to talk more then later went under regina's block to continue talking.. cant stop laughing lol! funny. anyway they were planning on a sabotarge hahas.

so went home and like dang my graphics card drop out and like i fixed it back after a few tries of errors.. -.- stupid crap. so like chat with eunice because like got this anonymous person at our blogs who tagged crap.. anyways told eunice about their plan=x hope she does not anyhow reveal it hahas.

oh yes, thank you eunice for helping me get my bio stuffs! =)
so tired now

-rev

forgot to post!

2007-01-25T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmms forgot to post yeaterday lolx

anyways was quite plain hahas. totally no mood so like dinn study for the ss test. after that during ss the test was posponed hahas. budden 4A still had the test. maths was borring as usual. chem went to lab and tested for gases(i made the hydrogen pop!) then like english class was crappy. dinn hand in the journal thing. stayed wif pq through amaths i think(cant remember) then later at night finally managed to make a gpotato account and played corum online hahas.

oh ya i chatted with eunice quite alot yesterday hahas. she ask me to help serene if possible.

today - serene did not come to school so like i have to collect everything for her -.- then like physics got worksheet. mt class i slept if not wrong. chemisty class i bored out and was flipping through the textbook. after recess is 3 periods of english.. borring! got this composition thingy then like hell write until my hand hurts. maths quite borring because like mr chan ask to copy stuffs again. after that is ss.. mrs peh did not come but still got test by relief teacher..

amaths class was next. was sort of like my recess. went up and down and blah hahas. f&n class reached there abit late because like wait for pq -.- anyways was like mostly looking at eunice or something diao.. hahas she so attentive! stare at teacher but some parts also look abit blur.

after school did not stay with daryl and pq.. lazy but like seems like something happened again.. diao.. anyways need to do geog stuff also.. diao..

came home.. chat with eunice! hahas then played abit of corum online then maple with eunice hahas. now im borreddd

that eunice.. -.- my char.. T.T nevermind hahas. take cares!

-rev

again..

2007-01-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

sigh today sooo borring! 1st 3 periods of f&n at the comp lab 3 borring. listen to music, visit blogs bla bla stuffs. anyways pq removed my plaster.. now the wound is erm freaky! so so so after that i went back to class, grab my stuffs and went for bio. during bio like borring i was doing my english homework while ms lee go through theory. continued the practicle test after that. did not finish the practicle test because not enough time so ms lee say until the end of the day.

eng class, borrrring just re-write my composition(no mistakes at all, failed because not enough words.. -.- ) so like rush but not enough time to finish writing anyway. went back to class for maths and got like capped out because i forgot about the maths homework then like sigh a bunch of use were scolded. after that was lunch time. went down and ate with pq and galston. oh ya before going down was in class reading with eunice(she was reading then i just join in) the note that daryl gave to pq. eunice reads so fast!! anyways after that walked down to canteen with eunice n pq. galston followed us halfway through.

after lunch.. MT class. sort of my free period so i was like finishing my bio then and since i had so much free time after completing my bio, i drew a picture of rukia on pq's book hahas(never finished one because i cant seem to get the back hair done, finished this time because i looked at pq's hair =P ) then like almost then was time out. went down to pass ms. lee the papers(mine n pq's) then went home.

came back, took a shower then on my computer, while waiting took out the note in my drawer(a note given on 18th of may 2006) and the just read it twice i think. put it back in and went on with my computer. played maple with john then with eunice(they were having so much fun with my priest..) anyways after that went to play dota and those two go mess up my priest.. daryl called halfway through my game and usual story..

so so going to check on my priest now.. those 2.. nevermind..

take care all =)
-rev

sigh..

2007-01-22T18:41:00.000+08:00

today was like a horrid! went to school quite late because like i had to iron my shirt last minute.. anyways walked fast and sweat all over hahas. during the assembly was like stare at eunice or something then like after that went back to class and passed daryl the inuyasha movie 3 disk.

P.E was a killer.. run 1.6km again.. oh ya daryl was stuck in the toilet then like we go off first to run then daryl took short cut to catch up.. diao not fair we ran the full thing and daryl took shortcut and catch up in 2 minutes!! okay after that geog borring. syafiqah place my bag on the floor and was like messed -.-

recess time like left a little bit of time but daryl and pq still go eat.. anyways was like i buy drink and go find galston. then was like he talk about this comedy or something and then was like while he talk i was like starring at eunice again.. she somehow has to sit so stright! sad sad..

after that bio got this practicle test practice.. stupid thing so hard! after bio is physics!! was like borring hahas then mr chan choose for those who need to go for the physics remedial but then lucky i was not chosen! lunch was after that like went down eat then look at eunice again.. sigh but anyways was eating with pq and daryl. went back class then went over to find zhenyang. peishan came in then.. diiiaoooooo she bully me!! so heavy then cling on me.. anyways was fun bugging zy hahas. went back to my own class because bell rang then was at the window and stare into nothing while having the wind blow on me.

after maths was like follow daryl and pq go do the geog.. daryl was like so damn pissed up then like hell he scream at me. went to library then asked alvin to help look after peiqi because like scare daryl too angry and do stupid stuff.. anyway later went to find peiqi(somehow i knew she will be under her block talking to daryl) then like was spying on them until peiqi noticed me.. later after they settle they come find me then i dissapear =P hahas then like they keep calling my name and claim that they are looking for a cat!(i'm a cat! -.-) anyways peiqi saw the wound on my finger(injured my middle finger while fixing the file in library, bleed abit) then like i dont dare to threat it.. like a whole drop of blood there.. scary! pq threat it for me.. scary threatment. after that go under pq block and wait for her(she place her bag and get a plaster) then i got my finger plastered up and now like cant bend it sad.. anyways we talked crap under the block like future plans and like can earn how much with what thingy hahas.

oh ya pq kept pronouncing 'wound' wrong. she pronounced into 'uound' hahas. spent some time teaching her how pronounce correctly. went off after that hahas.

hope you recover fast Eunice! and also thanks pq!!

Eunice

2007-01-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

today was all about eunice..

woke up at around 11+ then like on my comp to like just listent to music. after that like off my comp, dismantle my computer graphics card and cleaned the fan(so filled with dust!) then after that i cleaned my processor's fan and also its cooling fins. was troublesome hahas. fixed back everything had some errors so fixed that too xD now its all clean hahas.

so.. after that went to play maple and was soo bored =X play play play and totally bored out. so like at 4+(i guess) i called pq and like talk craps. oh yeah! i got like 3 prank calls today. some idiot callled and did not say anything, 1 of those calls lasted for around 30 minutes. all i can hear is some music being played(all was sung by Casting Crowns) then like that person always hang up halfway.. so back to chat with pq. she said someting about eunice then i say i'm also worried about her.. then like i told her that eunice made me not to tell anyway(espcially pq) but like pq kept asking so like i leaked out everything(she was lost in her feelings) sigh.. sad..

after saying out everything i became soo worried and abit down again.. but like later eunice went home(was out shopping, called her then) then like she came on and we played maple. was fun hahas(always fun with her around) then.. oh ya she had to go off then i have my stuffs to finish too.

after im done i went to eat dinner and also watch a movie on channel U. so nice! soo romantic hahas. okay now im bored again.

rest well Eunice! hope you recover fast! take care people

maple!

2007-01-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

hahas woke up like 10+ in morning then like listen to music awhile and then clean up my CPU(the fans and everything filled with dust) so like after that went on to play maple with eunice(practically played maple with that cute girl all day) and then like did not eat much for lunch because like full? hahas anyways around 5+ i went down to carry some stuffs then eunice also went off for awhile so when i came back i waited for her hahas.

after that we went exploring the dungeon diao lolx. sigh so many stuffs happened today(ok not that much)

anyways eunice did'nt go to see the doctor.. but she says that she is fine!(i hope so) so.. i asked her to go rest early hahas. so after she went off i watched this horror movie on channel 8.. so scary! darn don't want to talk about it..

-rev

rest well and recover fast eunice! take care

omg.. omg..

2007-01-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

today class was quite borring so wont talk much about it.. juz like i did my english homework during mother tongue class hahas. then like after that is like chem class then go back to my class to put my book. pq had to stay back for some english remedial then like she want me to stay and acompany her -.-

was like wait for her then i tried drawing rukia(failed though) so like after that she dismissed then she talk to ms ling for some other stuffs so like i went to her bag, took out her pencil case and then i took out her hole puncher to punch holes on my f&n worksheets. then later filled up everything and pop my file is done!

went to general office with pq n daryl then later walk to back gate halfway we walk to the red cross notice board near canteen then i look at the aero CCA room door was closed so went to have lunch with pq n daryl. was like we buy bubbletea on the way(pq choose the flavor for me) then like after that go to the what coffeeshop eat lunch. was like this bee hoon or something(daryl's threat, pq choose for me again) while waiting for it like we play with the water vapor from my drink or somethin(the smoke like thing, condensed water vapor) and then the food done then we eat hahas. after that we went to under pq's block to like talk crap hahas. soo much craps~ saw eunice while talking there. she was riding her bike while wearing this white shirt and shorts. realised its her when i heard her voice hahas. shes sooo cute!! after that went to pq's house so that pq can put her bag there. looked around hahas. later the eldest sis(the cute voice one) came back hahas.

went over to yishun park and dropped by at NTUC to buy a drink hahas. wanted to buy the new coke crap then daryl say the no-sugar thing is actually cancerous or something hahas. so brought a bottle of peach flavour Ice Cool drink then went to the park. was like played the swing with pq then like later daryl push me so high!(scary) then i stopped and daryl played instead. then i drew pictures on the sand and took it with pq's phone.

it started to rain so like go seek shelter(said go playground but she dont want) so like at this erm dome shelter at the park. was windy so got abit wet at first but then later like i have no mood because like the rain remind me some things.. they were like keep asking am i okay or not. we took a few pictures at the shelter there hahas was fun then like say galston and umairah walk home then like at the traffic junction there i go call umairah. got wet doing so hahas. so like go there crap abit then umairah went home. so we like wait there for pq's 2nd sis then wait until the rain over. i changed out of my uniform then like waited for the 2nd sis. after that she like turn up behind us(shocking) then like the 2nd sis actually looks quite nice! went home after that hahas. oh ya the 2nd sis has always wanted to see me LOL!(1st short form i used in this entry i think)

went home and took a hot bath as ordered by pq.. hahas then on my computer and played maple with Eunice when she came on. talked abit then like she said somethings(sorry can't spill out anything at all, promised her not to) but i'm like so so so so sooo worried for her now..

she says she is going to see the doctor tomorrow.. li told her to rest early =) hope she did as told..

-rev

hope you are alright Eunice!! rest well!

zzz

2007-01-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

morning was uploading music files.. then like damn pq made me out of mood.. even dou was almost done i juz like shut it.. diao..

so like woke up a few hrs later to go sch then like borring.. phy lesson go to lab then i on music diao... then ltrs go back class for mt. so borring so i slept. chem class so borring lolx. i juz keep flipping tru my text only hahas. borring n then after tt is recess. ate wif daryl n alvin hahas.

after recess 3 periods of eng like go to library to do the compre.. i like darn totally dunno wad to write diao.. re-write my crap 3 times -.- then like go back to class for maths(v short den juz nice only gt enuf time for test which wis 10 min) then like ss copy stuffs..

after lunch was f&n quite borring.. theory craps then i dinn print out my coursework so like haix gd thing cher say collect 2morro! anyways i talked to daryl in f&n then like he explained abt my weird dream(contained eun n some stuffs) like he say dreams tell what i am really feeling then like he guessed out everything im feeling.. pro! lolx. so after f&n pq dissapear then like me n daryl go canteen. i dinn eat coz nt much appetite then like talk alot oso. crap talks then like daryl told me his two wishes..

1. pq n his o'lvls will score well
2. he will have lunch 2gether with pq(hand in hand) n oso wif me n some1 else(hand in hand oso crap!)

like hear tt n diao.. anyways coz folo daryl go find pq so dinn go watch the bball match hahas. walked wif them to the traffic junction then i walk home. after reach home play abit maple then like call pq n talk crap budden she on line wif daryl so ltrs conferance call hahas. was crappy coz like pq so tired -.- anyways wanted call her after daryl go slp budden like something wrong diao.. haix

need print out f&n soon.. tired oso diao.. haix take care everyone!

tired!! bball lolx

2007-01-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

haix school was soo borring hahas. mt n ss 1st 3 periods then gt recess. recess time like erm.. oh ya do maths homework then ltrs no time eat n stright go hall. so like after recess is maths aready lolx. go for maths so borring.. after maths is.. chem!! wahaha fun part..

the cher bring us to lab then like have us to have the test for gasses again lolx. so like me n alvin play.. keep on the bunsen flame.. do craps the lolx quite fun! stupid chlorine freak smelly.. gd thing diddnt smell the ammonia.. or mayb will faint! lol! but overall was fun hahas. sad the hydrogen diddnt pop loud.. sad sad hahas. after chem was english.. quite borring coz do essay thing. so after that i free to do anything den daryl ask me company him for lunch.

ate some stuffs then ltrs help daryl forward some things to pq.. juz 3 words.. u noe the 3 words.. Those 3 words.. hahas!

okok played basketball after that was quite fun! lol so long diddnt play n in the end turned out quite well hahas. we talk like our sch bball team sure lose to WRS(woodlands ring sec) basketball lolx. my classmates/friends vs. my ex-classmates(pri sch now in WRS) lolx then like think.. ok my sch bball team cfm lose.. diao..

anyways reach home n played maple wif eunice n her bro hahas. quite fun

tired now coz of the bball.. take care everyone!

-rev

so tired!

2007-01-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

well im sooo tired today! its like slept at 2am+(pq slept at5am+ !!!) then like wake at 6+ haix so tired!! anyways managed somehow hahas.

went to school like sigh so tired while walking then like reach sch for once line up at the perade square..like borring! anyways like sat down infront of daryl then like eun is directly behind me!(beside daryl) anyways after singing everything and taking the pledge.. went back to class then like get some things filled up and then went for F&N lolx. was like go comp lab 3 then wait outside abit for mdm gan.. wait so long -.- then like go in n instead we were like listening to music n talking crap hahas. okok did abit of research then also copied some of pq's layout hahas.

so.. was like go back to class, put my f&n stuff, grab my bio then go down to canteen to eat. was fast budden very very full! lolx after that like bring pink dolphin(the drink!) to bio class again lolx like go hall line up and as usual teachers realise hahas. went for bio was quite borring then like drew on pq's book(was her when she put her head down on the table) then like talk craps hahas. so borring! anyways also drew a teddy hahas.

after bio was quite borring.. english 2 periods like crappish then after that is a period of maths. gd thing i finished my maths homework during english LOL! so like maths now gt so much homework.. diao

so after maths is lunch time then like follow daryl coz he want talk and then watch him eat as he talks(i still feel full) then like talk so much before go back class then like talk to pq abit also then like mt class start. sat beside pq for a little while then go to beside daryl n sleep -.- back pain while sleeping diao..

after that walk down to canteen then like saw pei shan there n then we laugh all about zy LOL! as usual 'see his face can laugh' then like hahas ltrs i finally managed to remove peishan's hair clip! then she whack me like hell.. pain like freak my arm totally red! freako. freaky pain.. then she like tickle me n stuffs diao. later she like try put a hairband on my head then like regina help her -.- she hold me down den regina put on the hairband lolx. so like hmms she wrote down my bday on her erm wadever its called. so.. after that we talk crap then like peishan play wif my head say my hair is very soft n nice to touch... made a mess out of it -.- diao

so after that while walkin home c some1 den talk crap abit b4 going home den oso c pq hahas. so.. b4 go home like walk pass bball court then saw mark n the bballers there(havin tournament) then like walk back home. play maple with john(eun's bro) then later play maple wif eun hahas. oh ya spent most of my maple time with jasmine lolx. bored juz sit there do nothing n talk crap hahas. sigh so tired now..

going to sleep!! take care all!!

best wishes and sweet dreams to all sleepers

busy!!!

2007-01-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

sigh now so busy doing the F&N homework.. haix tomorrow need to hand up then like today rushing to finish a 5-page thing.. ok this is very stupid.

anyways today is monday.. 1st day of the week then as usual theres mr. wong's pe class for the 1st two periods in the morning. hell run 1.6km.. like so cold!! early in the morning got like cold wind.. cold sia.. after that go to do stretching then like syahmi keep pushing me while stretching on 1 leg thing hahas. anyways like was crap run then keep heaving aches all over my body.. hurts! felt like fainting also while running.. was stupid. after that like go to canteen rest then i not really feeling good so daryl got me a cup of warm water frm the vendor(thanks!) anyways like go back class for geog. after geog is recess

so so after recess i diddnt change back into my uniform lolx then like go to line up at hall den mdm au walk up say abt wearin pq after recess crap. anyways got 2 periods of bio was quite borring since pq diddnt talk much and stuffs.. sigh.. after bio walk back to class for mr chan's lessons then he like ask us fill up some more craps about our grades n stuffs. so.. after that is a physics test. was quite easy hahas. syahmi got 1st 2 questions wrong! diao hahas.

after physics is lunch break.. like went to eat some japanese chicken at canteen after that went up to 3G to find zy.. then like pei shan was infront of him then like ask the who(forgot your name sorry) that was beside her to dont say it out budden she smiled then pei shan turned n tried to chase me to tickle me.. good thing i run fast! run back to class then have 2 more periods of maths lessons.. diao... sooo borring!

so like by the time i go like the rain juz nice finish then like i walk home then it rain again(whew) anyways like i only walk home then i break alot of sweat aready.. diao... sweat so much.. zz

anyways now no mood do the damn homework aready.. diao..

this afternoon like chat with eunice for the 1st time... quite long the chatlog in just 1 time like jump to 29kb or so.. diao.. she keep calling me blur boy.. -.- then ltrs say if anything just call her.. ehh?! diao..

damn seriously no mood.

woah!

2007-01-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

today woke up quite early then like on comp n watch tv(kids central again LOL!) then like all bored out hahas. until like 12+ went to play maple then like eun was there(either her or her bro) then like lolx play wif him(or her). after tt like go all over diao.. cost me alot lolx anyways like eun said 'pq says hi' lol! coz pq was there for awhile then ltrs say she went home. so like continue play maple then ltrs john(eun's bro) got off the comp den eun used it so like she nt playin maple on tt acc then like after she got off i got off oso hahas. after tt like she added me in msn!! O.O! ! ! !!! lolx

shocking eh? so like bored then called pq she dinn pick.. hmms i think i called her earlier was like while playin maple i think lol. anyways i went to play warcraft hahas. was sooo bored! play play play until like juz now. oh ya while playin oso chat wif jas hahas. she's quite cute lolx(the emotions she use) hahas. haix oh ya around 7+ i think pq called back then like i 4got why i called her in the 1st place -.- hahas then talk talk abit craps then she gtg lolx.

i skipped dinner.. again.. dunno y not hungry.. diao -.-

-rev

saturday!

2007-01-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

lolx 2day is saturday! woke up at near 11 like cant seem to sleep anymore.. like slp at 2+ at morning after watch bleach lolx.(downloaded it n watch)

so like erm nothin much to do all day like watched kids central(LOL!) in the morning like i watched pokemon!! LOL!! soo long then alot more diao hahas. after that go watch anime on youtube while downloadin this game stuff hahas.

so like pq called me coz she gonna hav a haircut den like eun wif her so like haix tok abit. after tt she go cut her hair n i continue wif my anime. at evening like pq called again then like talk abit den like go find eun in maple after pq mention tt eun is playin it lol. chat abit wif pq coz like she dunno wad to say to daryl(again..) lolx. anyways like played maple wif eun till like juz now den she go slp liao. so after that go play wif jas hahas. anyways sucked coz like i died 3 times in maple -.- sad sad.. nvm hahas.

take care everyone!!
-rev

still so full.. sobx

sigh.. lolx

2007-01-12T19:03:00.000+08:00

today like borring sia.. 1st 2 period was total crap like nid plan for the future den like i dunno wan go whr so like see pq there like go nanyang for food science or nursing so like think oso go nanyang lor for food/life sciences lolx! so like go talk around n c whos going whr hahas. anyways like oso gt the plans for the prom/grad nite stuffs lolx den like nid fill up stuffs. anyways after that was erm bio class. diao go over 4A for bio(ms. lee made it official to go thr evry friday) diao.. so like haix go thr oso borring.

then like after that is physics. i was like doing the homework infront of mr. chan while he explain abt it LOL! den like after physics is recess ler hahas. so like dismissed den go walk around.. was like walk wif pq den daryl come so like i was walkin between pq n daryl hahas. after that like go around wif daryl den go toilet n there oso talk aibt(private) then like daryl dun feel like eatin so i juz get somethin light den went off to line up soon ler hahas.

after tt is like mt lesson den atfirst go outside of class coz alvin wanna go library budden ltrs they go toilet 1st den like hell lazy wait den martin go back class so i folo him. go back go look at them do compo den the damn kx so noisy so like in the end go back of class slp den alvin came back n slp oso hahas. so after that is geog class like quite borring den talk talk n stuffs. then after tt is chem.. like stare at eun -.- diao.. den damien keep look over diao.. so like he look over den i look somewhr else. after chem like outside 4B ishaq n damien qurrel of some stuffs den almost fite. so like near end of it i go down liao den like outside the aero room the joshua(hey i see him in long pants in this sch for like FOUR years!) go talk crap so like almost fite wif him den ishaq come break it. after that like go around chat den tt peishan whack my shoulder so damn hard!! pain sia.. after tt bored so like go library coz nothin do den like eun, gs, pq, umairah, serene they all oso go mah. budden most of the time i at some corner coz like eun thr lolx. she laugh so loud! -.-

after tt go for aero. 1st hour like those ppl explain to the sec 1s den after tt go for flight sim at IT room 3. i was like listening to music thr lol. den bored so visited blogs den use web messenger hahas. after tt watch some vid den like dismissed den go off at like 5.35 wif gs they all. oh ya i gt a total defence bedge, silver! lol! weird eh? i skip so much still get.. anyways go walk wif gs, umairah n weeling den like took off my uni(pe shirt inside) then like walk.. its cold sia.. my hands numb aready lol. get a bag of fries den come back home. like sian i eat abit den soooo full aready.. . like cant even finish this bowl of cambell soup.. diao.. 2pid f&n thing.. 2day still so full.. diao.. haix.

ytd was a bad day. half of 2day was depressed. other half is back to usual lolx.

take care everyone! oh ya n happy birthday Ame too

2007-01-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

SHUT UP!!!....

JUST FUCKING SHUT UP!!!..

WHY CANT I JUST DISSOLVE INTO DUST?! GO AWAY! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!! GET LOST! GET OUT OF MY LIFE! GET LOST! SHUT UP!

mayb i should just run away.. mayb i shud juz die.. so that i dun hav to suffer anymore.. i hate it.. i hate my life.. it just sucks... why.. WHY?! WHY MUST MY DAMN LIFE SUCK SO MUCH?!

cried again.. just cant hold my tears.. why.. i hate you! i hate you to the deepest of my damned heart! I HATE YOU! GET LOST! SHUT UP!

just felt like walking out the door, slam it.. then go all the way to the top floor and jump down.. i dun want this stupid life anymore.. i dun even have friends to turn to when im down.. i dun even have any1 beside me whom i can trust.. i dun hav any1 who helps me.. i have nothing.. this juz.. sucks..

i hate me.

the baldy!

2007-01-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

lolx today 1st period mt so like faster do(copy) the ss homework hahas. then like after that was 2 periods of ss lol then like after that is recess. recess time went to talk wif daryl(abt pq) so like went 2 library then like damn for dunno wad reason eun came wif pq... zz anyways like talk 2 him abt erm.. sad cant say(private!) lolx.

so.. after that go hall line up den like some1 complain to mr. ng say he said too much this mornin at assembly so like talk some things there lolx. after recess is maths then like haix learn how to do the graph thingy.. lolx so after that went for english hahas. like mrs. lam dinn come so like this quite chio relief cher came in for awhile den ms. eng ask her come back ltrs coz she giv instructions for us n oso teach us abit english. after tt the chio teacher came back then like hav time 2 do.

so after that was chem class. last 2 periods of the day so like sigh so damn borring.. then like that eun sits infront.. diao.. haix.. like totally speechless durin chem.. lol.. anyways after that like coz i dun hav A maths so gt free time n den go around den find daryl wif the chinese cher den like bug him abit den mdm. naier came den like talk crap abt the hair thingy. anyways after tt go to find zy at his class lolx so like pei shan was oso thr lolx. den like she crap so much that her name wasnt supposed to hav a spacing lolx. as in Li Peishan lolx. anyways like after that go the the cabin den like crap there till 4. go find mdm davi den ltrs find mrs. indra budden cant find her so after that 4.30 den go find her again lolx. after that like get my hair cut(behind too long).. diao.. haix so like after that get my blazer(so hot!) n oso my tie(1st time i wear tie wif this uni n oso button up the final button) then like haix get on ms. eng's car den depart to the MOE lolx.

so.. reach there den no parking lot so like go 1 round to talk 2 guard den juz nice 1 guy leaving then like 'leave leave leave! faster leave!' LOL! hahas so like walk out den those 2 still discussing abt sabo me lol. so.. after get the clearence den go up n den like haix wait for awhile lolx. after get in like the arsher say representative cant b a child so like in the end mrs. indra go den was like laughin coz she like wan to sabo me. anyways like go take a seat den look the celing like nice coz like gt the star-like thingy lolx. so like soon the ceremony start den the minister(THE BALDY!) came in the like opening speech, intros n stuffs hahas. so like after that giv out the envelopes n den like minister go off den dismiss or somethin. den go find mrs. indra den laugh hahas. anyways was like wait 4 them coz they go washroom den ltrs go down den like find atm to top up the cash card(ms. eng's) then like only gt POSB so like go to this counter. den like look inside no1 there den like call then suddently that person pop up frm under the counter lol. so ltrs go back den like ms eng drop us off at ang mo kio den like mrs indra fetch a cab den get me to near my hse den she say its quite near to her mother's house oso lolx.

so.. reach home n the blazer is still wif me lol. 2morro nid bring back 2 sch n return it wif the tie -.- anyways take care every1!~~ oh ya talkin to pq on phone again hahas..

posting for ytd

2007-01-10T20:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday's post. had some errors so i saved down the post lolx.

today quite borring.. f&n 1st period so like was supposed to have cooking budden mdm. gan forget abt it so like discuss abt the coursework crap thing. so after that like recess like okok gt somethin to eat then like go hall line up coz perade squre wet then like no guys went infront to sit n then like so alvin go to the front as usual den i folo him so like ok if i really sat down then the person beside me would be.. her -.- so like i ran back n let the rest of them take the seats then like after tt like somehow land juz beside pq lolx. so like after recess was bio.. borring as usual den like keep crapping wif pq lolx. den oso get a set of worksheets which i got aready ..

so like after bio go back class then hav a short period of maths before go for lunch break. lunch break went down wif mark n came up wif syahmi. at the door there i go "BOO!" then like stick my head in n there she was again so i juz turned n went to find galston n he was like doing his physics thingy. anyways after tt she went back the her class(4A, the class i was in) so like okok i took the other door n went back to my class diao..

so like mt class i slp tru it n then woke up near the end n den go find ziliang n gang den like laugh to their crappy jokes until im out of breath lol. after tt like go meet wif zy den wait till 3.30 for darren then go nP while. oh ya while taking the bus was like some deep thoughts den Diane like flash her hand pass my face den i notice her walk pass lol! 2nd time i took bus n bump into her hahas. so like after tt go wait for mark find tt cd which he cant find then like while waitin watch 'i not stupid 2' at some tv near tt shop diao lolx.

so after tt came back home, on my comp den call pq lol. talk hell alot all the way till she go hav her dinner. anyways was weird coz its like the 1st time i was listening to the music she play coz normally its she listen to the music i play then like ltrs at around 7+ like can hear the anime she watchin on tv.. was MAR lolx. chinese dubbed. anyways after tt she went off for dinner den i oso go hav mine. went to played warcraft awhile n oso like afternoon finished watchin anime lolx so bored.

now im soooo sleepy.. nights all!
-rev

pe? lolx tired

2007-01-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

was like soooo damn tired 2day haix so like pq dinn go meet cher in the mornin 2day i think so like durin pe class Mr. Wong(the older n famous pe cher) like came 2 our class den call us wait coz he go down get the weighing machine up coz like instead of gettin us to go all the way down to take weight. so like hmms after take weight go find syahmi n oso like coz omella beside him lol. anyways so like ltrs like pq call me over den like talk abt daryl stuff n things. after tt like gt another period den recess ler. recess like folo pq go find mr. chan den like talk talk den ltrs she go find ms. lee den talk oso so like take quite some time den ltrs go centeen den no time eat aready. ltrs like line at hall. so like go to bio den like coz most of them go back class take the books n stuff so like only gt me, galston n omella lolx. den like while waiting like gt talk abt to omella(rare coz i dun really talk much 2 her) den like after tt rest come den talk wif pq. after tt like erm haix talk so much crap den like wan slp in class ler hahas.

soso after tt is like on the way back we found who to switch seats wif pq n was actually serene budden ltrs mr chan dun let coz he say she mus sit infront so ltrs erm pq switch seats to beside martin lolx. so.. after tt like walk around sch for some crap event hahas oh ya there was physics den more of the nuke stuff n den oso go comp lab like view some video den like oso enloy aircon? lolx anyways after sch like go folo mark den like saw daryl bugging pq so wanted 2 tok 2 her den like walk walk 2 general office thr den eun appear so like ok in middle of perade squre i turn n walk other side.

so like watch them play soccer at the wadever court den like spec alot den ltrs like haix came back home den talk to pq for a long long long time coz like haix daryl keep calling her den like she er havin lots of probs so like she called me with her hse phone den like juz nice safe so like daryl cant call her den she nt picking her hp oso lolx. anyways now dunno wad happen ler lolx. played abit of dota while lagging alot diao.. anyways now watchin anime again hahas.

take care all!
-rev

sad sad

2007-01-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

hmms played warcraft(dota) all day lolx den like morning at 3+ slp coz way toooo sleepy then 10+ wake up den cant seem to get back to sleep aready.. weird eh?

anyways played dota with fren all day(well almost all day) then pq jie oso called me a few times coz like relationship probs haix.. sad sad they broke up(i think) so like talk wif pq jie alot on phone den like help her coz like she confused or so.

so like at nite she called again this time like she really dunno wad 2 do n oso like haix so messed up then her decision was to break up(after thinking v v long) -line removed due to comments made- so now.. sigh bored. oso rushing to finish this post by 2morro(2mins later) so like 2morro is school again.. sigh.

take care every1!

-rev

finaly a post

2007-01-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

after like a few days i finally gt a post..

sigh slp at 7+ then wake up at 11.50pm lolx. so like school today sucks! 1st theres bio class where like ok hell no mood(coz of some1) then later is erm physics.. quite borring. so lots of crap recess ate japanese rice set(unagi+teriyaki) then went back to class. after that Ms. Toh ask us to all get down to perade squre to line up.
anyways like line up pq was there.. like.. diao... ..

... anyways.. like gt chem class at so like sigh.. no mood study also.. i noe i juz suck(i wun blame it on that person anymore)...

after school stayed back in sch then bought a P.E. uniform set and played bball. like play with them the usual chest pain came when i play. totaly sux.. anyways was quite fun even though its like killing me or so. so like play play play until like 5+ then go canteen there n wait for zy. after that take bus wif mark, weiming, darren, zhenyang then like depart at the interchange..

thursday.. heck.. cant remember..

im pathetic coz im only half sadistic(sux so much that i cant even be fully sadistic)

anyways i wont be living in this pathetic life for long. i know my body is breaking apart but im still strugging to be 'normal' until i reach that limit.

just a little more.. .

1st day of sch- haircut

2007-01-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

today is the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!

so like morning.. alarm rang at like 6.. then went back to sleep(so tired!) then later ring agian at 6.10 then went back to sleep. after tt bro on fan then like so cold!!! so like got out of bed -.-

so like drag myself to school then morning assembly.. so long.. sit there until butt pain -.- so after that like attire check. at first dinn get caught for my hair but later when leaving this teacher walk pass and catch a whole bunch of us... so like go to back of hall wait but later mr. chua dismissed some of us and instead ask us to report back to him tomorrow for him to check(means we cut ourselves)

so.. go to class and sleep hahas then there was some change in sitting arrangement then later like the rest of them either chat or just decorate the classroom.. after that recess. sorta walk to canteen with mark n syahmi and then like they buy drinks and somethin to eat. after that like was beside the stairs then chat with pq jie n daryl. later galston come n we start laughing all over again hahas.

after tt like go back class n then sleep again. slp slp slp till later english class some of us move over to 4A classroom and then talk some stuffs and have target setting. i wanted set target as C5(which is 1 point more, i got 54, a C6) so like she want me get B4(60 and above) like.. diao.. -.- so like later she want us to write down our weaknesses and then like crappish. after tt we r dismissed so went back to 4B class and then found pq n daryl there(daryl was practically angry) so like.. scary sia that daryl walk with those angry eyes... freak scary. then ms. ling also like bad mood. actually is because ms. ling want daryl to change sitting positions because he is like distraction to pq so like he doesnt want that so qurrel or something. after that like he so angry then pq so worried.. sigh..

anyways after sch go canteen with mark n syahmi after talkin to pq awhile coz of daryl.. haix then after that bought some tamago(egg) sushi and go take bus with syahmi n mark. so like talk crap on bus n saw Diane(hope spell correct) so like syahmi got off a few stops before the bus stop before nP so like after that go to comics connection with mark(he buy comic) then he cant find. then also i stomach ache so went to toilet. by the time i got back mark just nice found the comic he wants then like go take mrt with him. after that go the kathib there and got my hair cut. was like.. hell my hair is short now. so like after that tt guy ask 'you are schooling?' then i say 'ya i know this looks really like cleaner' then like diao... hahas crappish uniform!

so bla bla blahs now still sooo tired hahas. things happen all over. chiong for O'LEVEL!

2007!

2007-01-01T12:27:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year!!

hahas woke up not long ago.. finally my leg isnt that pain hahas. so like pq was back from her cruise last night then hmms called her hahas. was like talkin crap den oso doing some homework.. sigh theres soooooo much!

so like erm do abit of it aready hahas then watched the countdown while playin maple with jas. so bored! sigh now got totally nothing to do.. sad.. dunno y im so tired.. haix..

see ya all! and once again happy new year!

now im late n its new year's eve

2006-12-31T02:41:00.000+08:00

sigh watched anime too much until i lost track of time and was of course.. late hahas

so like this afternoon after i wake up i was like on comp as usual then start download. after that qurrel wif mum coz i dont want to go to the what-so-ever thing. bla bla bla big noises n things. anyways my legs muscles hurt alot coz i over strain myself yesterday.. pain!!

so like watched anime all day. went into maple awhile at evening coz someone wants me there to help wif some erm problems hahas. was fun! anyways it was jas who called me in hahas

so like after that back to watching anime. hmms.. cooked dinner- instant noodles(seafood flavour) with eggs(half-boiled due to cooking method) was nice hahas. ate it while watchin anime.

so like.. i just finished hanging up the wet laundry not long ago.. made myself supper(its almost 3am!) which is just 4 slices of tost bread(2 with margerine and 2 with blackcurrent jam) so now like.. im blogging and eating it hahas.

Happy New Year's Eve EVERYONE!

oh ya.. deleted 2 people from my contact list.

exhausted..

2006-12-29T21:34:00.000+08:00

darn.. so.. tired.. haix..

early mornin slp at 3-4am then like around 10 den wake up ler.. sigh.. still so tired.. den ltrs still nid clean up the hse(its always a mess) then erm.. dun even have enough time to watch anime sigh..

so after tt went off to pasir ris aready hahas actually walked passed kerensa block before entering pasir ris park lol. so like walk walk walk then halfway met up with syahmi and mark then we joke all over while walking to the barberque pit. after wait for the 3 ladies to come(lizhen, gwen and emily) and then later like try so hard to start a fire then cant coz wind too strong. so like instead we played cards until Mr. Chan(the chem teacher) came then we like rush to keep the cards hahas. after that Mr Chan(the form teacher) came with the rest of the people(joanne, wei ming, hou wen, shikin, herda, quraisha(hope spell correct), nadirah, hafizah and yue ting).

so later like joanne go buy fire starter then we finally got some heat(burnt my hand while playin with the flamethrower) hahas. so like after that we finally have molten chocolate then we ate abit(though i ate ALOT!) hahas. anyways tummy feels weird after eating that. so after that we went off since most of them go off aready(joanne want them to go to the church with her for some event or somethin) then like i went off with huang hua and then we walked all the way out of the park to the bus stop with bus 39 hahas. walk till leg pain.. so after that came back to kathib. so like walk with huang hua till near his block(though i walked 1 big round) then later walk back home(quite near)

so after reach home sort of dad clean up my mum's stuffs(those things she brought home-parents have always been fighting since long ago) so like.. move those things down so heavy.. then like i totally worn out aready.. sigh.. so tired.. anyways now its over.. soooo tired!

take care everyone! 2007 coming in 3 more days!!

im late! now its friday..

2006-12-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

haix.. im so late sia.. now its friday aready (haha) haix..

anyway today(thurs) i sorta played abit of maple in the afternoon(after i wake) den like go sch get my books(so long que!! so like i lazy stand thr n wait so like hang around den see a fren there so tok 2 him hahas) so like hmms. saw pq there n den kok weng oso there helpin out. pq had her foot drill training so like saw her after she was dismissed hahas. anyways was raining n was soo cold!! haix.

so after tt got back home den play maple awhile again hahas. after tt erm watch youtube(its anime abt this little girl who tru a strange encounter get magical abilities.. v nice hahas) then hmms. chat abit on msn then erm.. called pq jie hahas. talk crap again till like nt long ago lolx. talked so much crap tt i 4got to update my blog -.- anyways she gt to go coz her sis wanna use the phone hahas.

so later(coz now is friday) gt bbq at pasir ris(again!) .. hahas so like haix sad pq cant go(she'll b bz the entire day then go on cruise) haix. oso nt many ppl going oso hahas. so go thr for fun only sad.. anyways sch gonna start soon.. nid work on my homework soon hahas

take care every1!

presents!

2006-12-27T23:50:00.000+08:00

today i passed the presents to pq.. finally! hahas

tried callin her in afternoon budden she still in sch so dinn pick. call hse phone oso dinn pick.. haix troublesome.. call her so many times -.-

anyways i played maple awhile this afternoon. was sooo bored. anyways theres this stupid connection crap. keep gettin disconnected on msn and then oso in game. plus everything loads so damn slow!! today is a borring day. anyways im here lst min blogging hahas.

sad sad earthquake in er wads that country again? anyways its sad..

haix. oh ya. i was supposed to wait 900+ minutes for a download but i restarted my comp(which makes my proxy IP adress change) so like instead all i did was wait 2 minutes hahas. nice eh?

haix pq went to her aunt hse so long.. until now nt back so cant call her. sad.. haix hahas.

today is soo borring! take care everyone!

rain rain rain

2006-12-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

today, 2nd day of X'Mas hahas. actually is pq jie who reminded me that x'mas consist of 12 days hahas.

anyways.. its been raining All day!! sigh.. morning was soo cold(that idiot bro of mine still go on the fan.. was even colder witht hat) so like haix.. sneezing all over in the morning. oh ya while sleeping some rain drops fell onto my hand(bed beside window) so like cooling hahas.

totally diddnt play maple today hahas. was like erm watchin youtube, listening to music and also played abit of shattered galaxy hahas.

finished the final touches of the presents for Eunice, PQ Jie n Daryl. so troublesome wrappin up pq n daryl's presents hahas.. Eunice's present was wrapped at the shop aready but i opened it and added a little note inside hahas. been some time since i last wrote something so that note is.. quite crappy =X sigh hahas.

sigh on x'mas..

2006-12-25T21:38:00.000+08:00

today is the 1st day of xmas n im sighing all day. haix..

no mood since ytd.. sigh.. lol sorta lost abit while chattin wif nJ n ph.. bla bla bla yeah big screaming time coz they lost their temper(nj totally went berserk on the 1st minute) haix.. nvm.. dun wanna talk abt tt anyway.. sigh.. bad mood all the way until now lol..

was talkin wif pq till quite late.. shes soo cute!! hahas that voice lol. she was hugging her teddy while talkin n lots of things hahas. pq has lots of stuffed toys on her bed lolx(arround half of her bed taken by her stuffed toys) was fun budden she had to go off coz shes erm sleepy hahas.

so.. 2day was soo bored. played maple awhile then erm went off to watch youtube(couldnt find anything to watch so i watched gundam seed destiny again hahas) then erm.. now still watching hahas.

2day is oso my sis'(2nd youngest) bday hahas. somehow shes born on the 25th of december, early in the morning(somehow was 24th wait till 25th den she came out lolx. anyways now eatin a slice of cake(its quite a small slice coz actually was cut by my bro for my youngest sis budden my sis(second) passed this since to me. anyway im quite full) hahas. haix remembering some stuff due to the cake(was sorta same as my 'tiny' bday cake n of cos.. its bigger..) haix... sigh..

no presents for me on x'mas. as usual. as always.. haix.. anyway i hav to wish others merry x'mas 1st b4 they wish me back..(stupid eh?) haix..

now i'll erm continue slowly eatin this cake.. then erm.. watch youtube oso hahas. take care all!

Merry christmas! abt 2 hrs 10 min more till the 1st day ends. hav fun every1!

Merry Christmas

2006-12-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to all n also Merry Christmas to ME! hahas..

seems like im gonna spend this Christmas alone again.. hahas.. sigh.. as always as usual..

no presents for me! yay? diaooo.. haix.. hav agreement wif pq jie say erm she'll help me pass her(eun) her present on wed after her footdrill practice n b4 the research thingy. hahas. so i'll b passing her presents for herself n daryl oso hahas. anyway she noes wad they r(she helped to pick them anyway hahas) haix..

Merry Christmas Every1!! have fun n stuffs hahas..

Christmas EVE!

2006-12-24T20:36:00.000+08:00

its Christmas Eve!! approx 3 hrs 20 minutes more!! heeex hahas

juz finished watchin some show on tv hahas. quite nice then now is the erm dunno wads the title of the show budden oh oh the title juz came out on screen : "Wish Upon A Star" hahas. the erm s'pore idol ppl there singin hahas nice!.

anyways 2day very very very very borring.. nothin much 2 do hahas. sigh.. every1 else r bz wif their own stuffs.. sad... nvm.. its juz me.. just my luck hahas.. sigh.. never mind..

memories should be forgoten..
so that those pain could be erased..

sigh.. haix.. anyways..

Merry Christmas ALL! ., have fun..!

the webby!

2006-12-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

hahas was like lookin at nJ in her web-cam all day lol!(until now its still on!) hahas fun. took some ss of her in her webby oso. look!see shes bored ler hahas.

see her shirt makes her tummy looks big(shes 100% NOT fat) hahas.
nice figure eh? hahas nJ rox! lol!
nJ sticks out tongue. cute eh? hahas

okok actually gt more picts hahas. oh ya we played hexic bla bla hahas cant beat her in tt game =X sad hor? nvm hahas.

Merry X'mas all! 2 more days!

2 more 2 more!!

2006-12-23T12:25:00.000+08:00

2 more days to X'Mas!!! hahas counting down everyday xD

lst nite.. hmm more like this morning. was like chattin wif nJ(she cant slp early coz she gt 2 consume medicine lolx. so like made some animation picts. was fun hahas. sigh stupid blogger cant preview those picts.. -.- anyways go to my photobucket to view hahas. was fun making them lol!

Merry X'Mas all!! hohoho!!

3 more days!! heex

2006-12-22T19:08:00.000+08:00

3 morree days!! hohoho

was supposed to go the pasir ris for the chocolate party bla bla then like raining so canceled sad..

so was like i meet up wif pq jie at the OCBC bank there at NP so like wait awhile(she abit late) hahas. so like walk around then wanting go buy the water 1st(lizhen wanted us to bring a bottle of water for the choc party) so like walk to outside cold storage there den juz nice elaine called pq(oh ya met pq's sis while going there.. she go bump her sis den walk away den her sis turn n look at me diao..) n den say tt the choc party postponed coz there pasir ris raining.

so in the end walk around coz pq say 'now wad?' n i reply wif 'buy presents' lol!

so like walk around NP den visit various gift shops.. den pq say 'u buying for who?' den i say like i buyin for 5 ppl. den she ask if i gt buy for eunice anot den i diddnt reply n juz laugh lol. well she knew my answer n den ask wad she likes.. was troublesome.. hahas coz i keep sayin 'dunno la' after she ask me wan buy wad lol.(she kicked me a few times. whack my hand/arm/shoulder after my reply n those jokes abt wad to give hahas)

landed in this gift shop den buy this erm keychain thingy tt hav eunice's name on it. like.. this :
Eunice
Joy with Victory
somethin like that den hav this verse below or somethin hahas.(for a wooden plate it cost quite alot!) hahas den ltrs like go around find somethin else(cant juz giv a keychain rite?) so like we play wif the stuff toys there hahas. den ltrs after findin the present(secret) we go find wrapping paper(for a piece of paper it cost $1.80) n den was wrapped up at the casher there or somethin hahas.

so.. like walk around den erm visited popular den walk 1 big round to the gift corner. there find these small little things(4gt wad they r called budden its shiny n den gt a letter) so like buying for jie n jiefu. sorta its a letter R(for daryl) n a letter D(for pq) hahas. quite nice(for such small stuff oso dun come cheap) diao.. oh ya jie wanted to get the foldin star paper(its special extra small size 1, seems cute n fun) budden in the end dinn buy hahas. ltrs like walk around den folo her go MRT station to top up her EZ-link card. on the way there like meet weiming at NP entrance den talk crap. ltrs houwen appear(wm n houwen was meetin up) so like talk more crap den ltrs those 2 go eat n den i folo her go station thr.

so after tt go back 2 bus station den like bored so take bus wif her(i knew i wud hav headaches) n den like sad usual headache. after tt like walk back home(coz i took the bus she take, mine was some other hahas) on the way back like my feet bleed abit(stupid slippers).. anyway now im back n den hide the presents somewhere(dun like ppl askin)

3 more days. countdown continues 2nite! Merry X'Mas all!!

4 more 4 more!!

2006-12-21T00:59:00.000+08:00

woohooo FOUR more days to CHRISTMAS!!!

well well this mornin gt affected by some words tt i read den nt so gd mood when i tagged her blog lolx =X sigh.. hahas so like hmm dun think i played maple 2day.. was watchin Mai Otome off my bro's comp.. its a really really nice anime!! xD so like erm played Shattered Galaxy while my bro took his afternoon nap(pig! =P) so like after tt watch the anime again.

den at 11++ i called jie(told ya i'll call her!!) n den chat wif her awhile.. She Can Go The Choc Party!! woohoooo!!! juz nice on fri dun hav research prog xD yay!! so like 2day watched the entire series of Mai Otome lol. oh ya!! jie's voice sounds soo cute on the phone!! 'yep!~' heex cute!

juz now visited Maxine's blog n wished her happy belated bday(her bday was on the 20th of December so im like 40min+ late sad sad sry!) n then clicked that 'DontClickHere' crap lolx. was full of spam so i on my AC(auto-clicker) n then wait awhile hahas xD

hey hey u all DONT CLICK ON THIS!!

juz now this thing came into my mind.. more like a little poem! : : :

Let all the dreams weaver ..
Let all the hopes shatter ..
Let all the tears water ..
And for all thats' lost ..
Let a new light shine once more!

nice? nice? lolx original out of my tiny winy brain xD

once again, Happy Christmas everyone!

Ho Ho Ho

2006-12-20T02:48:00.000+08:00

5 more days to Christmas!! whooo!!

got bored of maple these few days.. sad sad.. oh ya Jas lost her erm very very expensive item (sorta she scrolled(enhanced) tt item alot..) sad sad.. cheer up jas!!

hmm then like oh ya went back to playin abit of Shattered Galaxy lolx. was bored(gd thing sound still pays for tt acc xD) so like atleast im still reknowned in tt game hahas(the famous granite that talks crap n thrashes)

hmmms chat wif Kerensa 2day(more like erm yesterday) then like.. I'M GETTIN A X'MAS PRESENT XD XD!! yay me yay me!! woohooo(sry i dun really get presents so like erm excited xD)

somehow.. i juz feel happy for some1.. dunno y.. dun really noe wad im doing.. or y im still doing it.. dunno y i even went there.. wonder y i bother to chat with her..
to that person who i juz tagged n by miracle came here and read this : i am sorry..

sigh.. suddently not really feelin tt erm 'high' or somethin.. anyways.. take care every1 !!

oh ya.. 4got 2 tell jie(pq) abt tt choc pt thingy.. shots.. dun wanna call her now.. most prolly deep in her sweet little dream =X i'll tell u later!!(now is wed aready)

hell posting delayed so long!! stupid connection cable got lose.. was like 1st turn it wif finger(now my finger hurts) den i go take some hand tool crap n turn it n finally gt come connection!! heex

tired..

2006-12-19T13:14:00.000+08:00

was sooo tired ytd den slp at almost 3 or so. ltrs this erm afternoon? my dad woke me up to help clean up my mum's 'mess'(both parents do opposite stuffs so there will always b somethin 2 clear..) so like.. argh shift things around n stuff.. troublesome.. after tt like erm.. im playin my comp now? lol!

was chattin wif kerensa lst nite heex. heres an Eclipse pict i made for her after she choose her colour :
lolx view in full. its purple not pink ..

out?

2006-12-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

lolx early mornin wake up.. its like 10+(so early!!) hahas den erm go 2 meet mark at sch there hahas. ltrs folo him 2 buy book(mum told me 2 get it some other time) .. anyway maths was out-of-stock lolx. so ltrs go 2 erm canteen wif mark(2day gt RedCross training) den see pq there at perade squre den darren commanding lolx. pq keep looking over.. eek she gt distracted!! lolx den ltrs go to buy a drink at canteen the vendin machine hahas.

after tt like drink? lolx was juz soya bean.. feel like puking after drinkin it(i dinn finish it) den like while drinkin stand somewhr pq can see den she like keep lookin over.. -.- so distracted lolx

after tt go out to bus stop den like walk back in again LOL! so like erm sit at canteen talk crap lol den the redcross ppl run pass .. O.O hahas. after tt meet up wif the bball guys den hav lunch at N.Point.. hmm Eel rice bowl as usual.. dou wanna puke after eatin.. hell.. now still wanna puke..

after tt dinn go mark hse(he called me go ytd den 2day say dun.. idiot!) so like erm take mrt to chua chu kang there(wanted to visit chen chao) so like walk 2 his hse.. hell so long.. den like press door bell n den some lady come. ask for chen chao n.. .... she says he went back 2 CN n nt back yet.. DiAo...........!!! sigh.. ltrs on mrt back sorta slept.. tired.. haix

hmm abt yesterday.. spent 2 hrs removing some stupid virus in my comp.. den like played rakion hahas. after tt at nite call pq(wanted 2 ask 4 mark hse number budden she dunno) n den instead we talk for like 1 hr++(i think more) lolx den ltrs while talkin on phone i play wif my mic again hahas. call elaine to listen den ask'whos that?' she fail 2 guess 1st den ltrs finally guessed it hahas fun! ltrs after pq gtg i play wif audio converse again.. lol let her hear my typing sound while chattin(freaked her out lolx sayin too fast) hahas. shud b all

once again, wish every1 a Merry X'Mas!!

borreed lolx

2006-12-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

was soo borring all day coz like quite sick of playin maple lol. was sad coz eun cant play maple 2day coz of some error(read more at her blog lolx) well atleast gt some party 4 her. hoped ya had fun!

so 2day i sorta played gunbound wif zhuxin den erm oso played rakion.. quite fun coz long time dinn play tt game le lolx. anyway spent a longg time playin games. oh ya! there was this movie called : Legend of the seven seas of somethin. the Simbad(hope spell correctly lol) adveture thingy hahas den like watched it while eatin potato chips. after tt erm chat awhile den watch some anime oso hahas.

haix nothin much 2 say abt my life.. lol oh ya i saw the GM in maple 2day.. hahas was cool! tatas all
lolx xmas thingy. did this on the 1st day release of happyville hahas.

finally done!!

2006-12-16T04:56:00.000+08:00

yeah!! after 3 hrs workin on this.. IM FINALLY DONE WIF MY BLOGSKIN!! hahas

frm 10+ onwards i was visiting blogs in a chain form(means click on the links on the blog itself to visit the next) den do until near 12 den go friendster check stuff hahas. after tt erm go visit blogs again den start working on my own blog heex lol.

ytd.. erm more like 2 days ago.. played maple wif eunice hahas brough her to HappyVille n deco X'Mas trees. sad only she took pictures lol. after tt played GB as usual... tooo bored lol

hmm yesterday.. 15th Dec. 2006 is my mei ZhuXin's 15th bday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI!! sry 4 being so late..

anyway wish every1 happy holidays n a Merry Christmas!

Where... ?

2006-12-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

been long since i last blogged lol. my NeW blog! hahas.

its so borring these few days hahas.. like juz play game everyday n everyday seems almost the same. yin lun came over a few days ago coz like my sis brought him here? lol!

today. went to the erm Casting Crowns thing. was nice!! the song.. the music.. well almost everythin hahas. actually went there coz like some1 asked me 2 go lol n den like ok.. walk there.. den like i left home late den tot i reach there late oso.. in the end managed to sneak into a seat near the center hahas. like somehow met Joanne at the entrance there lolx. after tt met some famillar faces there too hahas. abt tt concert.. its like a christian band or somethin come 2 perform.. v nice n oso gt like jokes hahas. n theres this drummer.. darn tt was some freaking fast hands! den oso like some parts like we jump all over lolx den oso my hands were like freezing(my hands freeze easily) haix..

havnt went out 4 quite some time aready hahas.. was fun. 2day.. was a sad day too.. Kerensa broke up(i think it was today) sad.. stay cheerful Kerensa!! =)

Where did my strength go when i needed them?..
Where did my voice go when i tried to speak?..
I'm losing my touch..